i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

the o's have ended..another torment on the way:the results..argh!!this crap is getting to me..hmm..was raining practically the whole day..the weather was so fine..but rilla had to go to school..hmm..went to eat after the paper..flirting was not really a problem at mac..like ain said..'a lot of new faces'..yea..a lot of new victims of pleasure..haha..went home..

then at one point i got so stressed..i really donno why..did'nt even have the mood to go for prom..ask lyla..she knows..was on the phone with her..despite all my pleas..despite all my solutions to not go for prom yet meet my friends later..despite all this..matix2 dier tknk berala..jahat nye totoink head..but ya..then so many other problems got into mind..[you],family,my next move,anticipating the results..papa sold his car already i think..he said family was unbalanced with the lack of money..and abang had to get fined..saw mum's wallet this morning..the amount she had inside shocked me..but ya..had been a while since those tears rolled down..and alas..it did..i just got stuck amidst all the commotion in my head..that i really had to find the easiet solution..and fast..so that was it..

my day changed from laughing so hard to the point til i cried then being so alone with nothing to cheer me up and with that feeling..everything else went downhill..haish..the irony of life..the sophistication of Man..felt the same though after the ordeal..then lyla called..talked..told her about the mess..then abang came home..he was also pissed and stressed..he read the 'today in history' book..he literally indulged himself in the knowledge he could pick up..venting his pressure on reading aloud..then both of us got mad and crazy..he learnt the word 'totoink head'..lyla was going bezerk with the antics of abang and i..then he went to his room..picked up the other phone..talked to me and lyla on the line still..she was going crazier with abang's and my nonsense..get this..the real reason he wanted to talk was to ask me about where his lighter was..so people..im not to blame for the nonsensical behaviour..it runs in the family..he said that his ass was cute and small and NIBBLICIOUS..right..so that one can nibble on it..aint kidding..he said that..so self-praise is not caused by us..we use the praises of others to praise ourselves..haha..

yea..still messed up though..hurt is still there..fear is still there..my love for [you] is also still there..

this i promise [you]

p.s:NAD!!this entry doesnt have you in it..too caught up in my thoughts la..probably the next one k..found out you were gonna meet shaboy..that'll be good..haha..

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