i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

yeah..this is gona be long..a blog is not personal..but it's the only place i go to write my thoughts..and in this case..my confession..hmm..it might seem that im really happy..trouble's not brewing in my life..to a certain point it's true..everything's been good..but still..behind every smile..a mile of tears flow..and behind every laughter..a memory of my past moves by..not just any past..the one that most thought i'd gotten over..

see..i'd been chancing upon my ex for a number of times..and the moment i see my ex..i just cant control anything..everything flows..and im not thinking wet things here..haha..oh well who am i kidding..hmm..my love flows..my thoughts flows..i become a truly happy person once again..but hearing reality telling me my ex's with someone..just hits me hard..and i fall down again..yes..everybody's heard of falling down..being hurt..and getting up again..but this time..it's different..i'm using the word 'my ex' for reason..it does'nt sound romantic at all..oh my God..but whatever..

ain,fyera,lyla,nad(i had time to put your names in alphabetical order..thank me)...i know ive been hiding this from you..i just didnt want to let you people worry..haish..if i could explain it i would..but i cant find any words in the limited vocabulary of mine to just tell you..im so sorry..flirting was a way that i took to just forget about my past..to let it go and move on..like you people told me to..however..how far can i go?yes ive been on the naughty side..but still..flashbacks are inevitable..and worse..i keep seeing that smile..hearing that laughter..looking into those glistening eyes..aaaahhhh..it feels like chocolate melting infont of my eyes..call me crazy..call me insane..call a doctor a psychiartrist..a nurse is even better though..they're so petite dont you people think?hahaha..argh!!somebody has to cure me..

God..this entry can become an essay..argh!!time is tthe best medicine..but i think that time is just there so that one can realise that one has to move on..yet i dont want to!waaaaaaaa!!!!the o's are 2 days away and this is on my mind..what am i thinking??but whatever lah..just wanted to let things out of my chest..once again..im not thinking dirty..hahahaha..ok..*flirt.confessed*