i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

visited grandma at gh..was alone..misssed grandma so much..she was ok..but the needle through her hand was a hard one to swallow..what more the amount of blood that leaked..it pains me to see her like that..there were doctors trying to plan what to do..she has a tumour in her eye and a growth that covers her left nostril..and her op's prolly gonna be on tuesday..haish...if i could stay by her everyday i would..haish..and now im thinking why couldnt i be a lil bit more patient with her when she's around at home..will be visiting her tomorrow again..

sorry fyera i couldnt attend elvy's birthday..

pull through this grandma..i know you can





HO HO HO!!!!save some milk and cookies for thee flirt!!the origin of the milk is of no concern!!haha!!ok..breathe..haha

thank God for today!!!hahaha..went to johor..but stopped by shell at simei first..saw vibrating condoms on sale at the cashier..it struck me that people are either being real clever and innovative..or they're trying to find ways to avoid pregnancy but still feel the pleasure..hmm..or they're becoming pervertic morons..haha..

reached johor..went to some place..cause as usual..we got lost..haha..then went to pelangi..now this is where things got heated up..haha..went for lunch..ate steak and chicken..had ice-cream at swensen's..couldnt finish..darn!haha..went to buy 12 dunkin donuts..yum!then mum wanted this LV wallet for RM151..i thought it wasnt worth it..and after much scrutiny..found that the logo could come out..so told mum..she decided not to buy..haha..then went to coffee bean..i couldnt stuff myself no more..first of the first..haha..hmm..but as usual la..the flirt wouldnt be the flirt without flirting..hahaha..so it was all good..haha

now im home..wanting to play the xbox..bought new games!!whee!!hehe..wanted to buy this larry game..for health purposes..i shall not spill what kinda game it is..but i just couldnt buy it infront of my parents..yea..that'll be enough of a description..hehe..hmm..and that's it!im stuffing myself with chewing gum now..before i get overly crazed of it..i shall stop blogging..hmm..that doesnt have much of a connection does it?ah..i dont care..im too on top of the world to do so!!!muahaha!!!!and no..i didnt take no drugs..hehehe

You Know You Love The Flirt





xbox..xbox..xbox...tv..tv..tv...xbox...crackers..xbox...popcorn..xbox..bathe..airport..fish and co..swensen's..sweets..

the things i did..the things i ate..the places i went..

the flirt's gluttony

muahahahhaha

You Know You Love The Flirt





hmm..kinda felt nostalgic-ky..so this is what i did..to my friends..you people better listen..i got you people in mind while writing this..hahaha..

every night i go to bed
thinking what i'll be without you
the things we have done and said
and the things we have yet to do

then for a moment i get scared
cause to think of it
you really cared
and losing you i wouldnt have dared

rough patches and bumps on the road
are some of 'em things i had to battle
but you were there to lighten my load
and i know a 'thank you' somehow wouldnt settle

so to you this is my vow
i'll never leave you no matter how
but if im gone and you're in need
just close your eyes,and i'll be there at the next heartbeat

darn!i hate you people..you people make me feel so lovey-dovey..totoink heads!hahahahaha

You Know You Love The Flirt





went out with parents..went to IMM jurong..on the way..papa complimented on mum's new hair colour..haha..im not surprised..haha..then headed to parkway..parents wanted to buy the couples ring for themselves..romantic la kirekan..haha..25 years of marriage and it's as though they're still in courtship..hahaha..in the end didnt buy..as usual..mum couldnt make her decision..haha..then i came to imagine how they were when they were dating..hahaha..papa with his afro hairdo and mum with the i donno what hair..haha..

well..mum and pa..i love you people to bits and crumbs and micro-crumbs and so on..haha..abang had to stay in camp tonight..hmm..no more 2 in the morning macdonald's meal for me..haha..i love you too abang..haha..hmm..fyera's away..i dont miss you much though..cause you're safe here in my heart..haha..and so is ain and nad and darn..do i have to say this name..haha..and lyla..haha..i love you people..

You Know You Love The Flirt

love love

kiss kiss





thank God for my family..i love my family..we can be dysfunctional..yet we can function well..haha..gave back mum's handphone..and someone msged me..and she msged back for me..like she knows what'll be my response..i just love my mum..papa has been stuffing himself with popcorn eversince we found out that the microwave has other wonders..haha..i just love my pa..my brother has been very nice..he's collected himself enough to think straight..which is a good thing..and he's been spending his time with family..which is another good thing..i just love my brother..

now..that passage can be the winning entry for a 5-year old kid..which is another good thing..haha..hmm..just having one of em those i-dont-care-what-im-talking-about days..but it's all good..it's all true..

my family rocks

love love

kiss kiss

The Flirt Is Back and You Know You Love The Flirt

ain
fyera
lyla
naddy

hahaha...

muaks!!!!!!

Thank God!





that's it..i cant handle it myself..ive got to tell someone..someone like God..listen..please..i really need you now..like always..im screwed..i cant take this hurt..help me forget her..please..i dont want her back..i cant make her happy..i know that..i want her to be with one who'll see her through..all the way..let her be whoever she wants..let her be sarah..please..help me let her go..i dont want to cry for her no more..i dont want to worry my friends and my family anymore..they're dying to see me pieced back together..i want sarah to be strong and never fall..i want her to have a smooth relationship with daniel..i want her to be happy..really happy..i dont care if she deletes me out of her life..i want her to smile..i want her to go through her life with ease..i dont want her to worry about her financial situation..i dont want her to worry about anything..i want her to be that woman i know her for..please..just help me let her go..without that pain..please..

to my friends..help them as well..they're trying their best to lead their increasingly challenging lives..help them get through their problems..help nadiah to realise her part in her relationship..help her to break that communication barrier with her family..help her to erase the misunderstandings..help ain as well..she seems so lost..so in pain..knowing someone's gonna go for 8 years..it's gotta hurt..help her through that..help fira to clear the clouds with din..see her through her confused state..help laila..to tolerate her family as well..help her realise smoking's not gonna help much..help them through..it's killing me to see them hurt..

to my family..thanks for putting mummy and papa back together..i could'nt bear to see mummy sleeping outside on the floor..just help us go through the money problem..to abang...help him forget kak radya..help him through his depression..and help papa realise family ties are there for a reason..help him know that grandma wont be here long..so dont have so much anger and hatred towards other family members..to grandma..she's been strong..she's been very strong..i dont want to see her go..so while she's here..help her through her sickness..

please God..im not asking much..just listen..





the song that made my heart cry:

Just let it die
With [no goodbyes]
Details don't matter
We [both paid the price]
[Tears] in my eyes

[You] know sometimes
It'd be like that [baby]
Now everytime i see [you]
I [pretend] i'm fine
When i wanna reach out to [you]
[I turn and i walk] and i let it ride

[Baby] i must confess
[We] were bigger than anything
Remember [us] at our best
And [don't forget] about
Late nights,playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms

[You'll] always be [in my heart] and
I can see it in [your] eyes
[You] still want it
So don't forget about us
I'm just speaking from experience
*Nothing can compare to your first true love*
So I hope this will remind you
When [it's for real,it's forever]
So don't forget about us

Oh they say
That [you're] in a new relationship
But [we] both know
Nothing comes close to
What [we had],it perseveres
That we [both can't forget] it
How good we used to get it

There's only [one me] and [you]
And how we used to [shine]
*No matter what you go through*
[We are one],that's a fact
That you can't deny

So [baby] we just can't let
The fire pass us by
*Forever we'd both regret*

dont forget about us

for you

my orange cream

my cupcake

my first true love

my baby

my best friend

my sunshine

my everything





this week has been a vexed and frustrating one..ive never felt so small..ive never felt so abnormal..im still broken but still good..shit happens

i once knew about a twinkle in [your] eyes and a smile in [your] voice

enough said

A Flirt Of A Few Words





hmm..my days have been mood-less lately..sorry to my friends though..ive been turning down their offers of going out..i just dont want to do anything..dont want to go out..dont want to bathe..dont want to sleep..dont want to do nothing..been staying at home..3 days in a row..that aint the flirt that many come to know..but yea..everyday has just been bleargh..nothing to talk about..no excitement..so that gives a reason why updating my blog aint no more an everyday thing..

im done

The Flirt's Lost The Flirt's Nuts
somewhere..