i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

visited grandma twice..with nad and fyera(thanks guys)..and by myself..and grandma..i might not say this to you in person so this is the second best place i could think of..

im sorry if ever i caused you any pain..i didnt mean to..i want you to come back and stay here..at my place..i want you to call my name and ask for water,food or even going to the bathroom..i'll do anything as long as you come back..i dont want you to ever leave me..i want you to stop these tears from falling..i want you to be here again..i want to sleep beside you when im scared..

grandma..you're my confidante..you're my best friend..you're my life..you mean everything to me..and i dont want you to ever go..i read uncle's msg to mum..it said 'mother's condition is getting worse.be prepared'..but i know you're gonna get better..i know you will..grandma..even with all those tubes and stiches..you still look beautiful..in fact..you're the most beautiful 80-year old i have ever known and i love you..trust me..with all my heart i do..

God..if this is what it takes to wake me up..it's a good wake up call..ive realised my mistakes..i'll never repeat them..just give grandma the strength again to come back well..please..i dont want her to go and make me feel ive been a bad grand-daughter..cause i know i havent been at my best..i want to show her that i'll care for her when no-one is there..i want to show her that i'll repay all the things she's done for me from i was born..i know to an extent it'll never be enough..but i want to show her that i'll do my best..and i'l never complain..

grandma..i love you

i'd do anything for you