i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

I SWEAR I WILL NEVER TAKE OFF MY RING.EVER.

oh my god la!i want to cry.i really thought i left home with it and got frantic and panicky when i realised it wasnt on my finger.bah.sorry baby.and sorry to fyera and mairah and neesha and to zameer too.haha.oh and nadd and lyla.haha.met them on the way.mann..i really was panicking.really.was putting wax on my hair before going out la and i always take my ring out cause later my ring all,umm,waxed.ya.haha.oh well,baby!no need buy ring again!haha!and sorry.ya.really.

anyway..today went great!*my cheena and i went to sentosa!!haha.again la.cause *my cheena complain why we never star gaze.so we went and there were a number of stars that we could see but we mostly saw MrCheesyMoon.and my tummy hurt.i was blaming the nasi sambal goreng i ate for breakfast.grr!i still am blaming it.haha.oh well,we still ate.delifrance then ben&jerry's then new zealand thing.haha.it ice-cream too.haha.oh oh and i had corn.haha.

but but before nightfall,we went to the underwater world.yay!it was happening people!haha.we touched the stingrays!!haha.then i thought of steve irwin.but then the stingrays looked harmless.and cute to a teeny weeny extent.haha.and they felt slimy.haha!then we saw MrJellyfish and MrSeaHorsie and some other cute little sea creatures.haha.like like the sea angels!haha.they is looking like glow worms.haha.but there were like huge ass creatures too.that looked as if they've lived through the prehistoric times.gee.but they were hugely giganormous.i think if some fisherman could catch it,his family will be full for 30 years!haha.okay lame.bah.haha.

then we went to see the dolphin show which wasnt much of an excitement cause the sun was practically shining at our eyes and some kid was kicking *my cheena.the only highlight of that was i found money!95!cents.haha.oh well,still money.haha.then we walked to palawan beach cause we were tired and it was the nearest.haha.mann..*my cheena screamed like nobody's business when i was attempting to push *my cheena in the water.aiyo!i think you people heard it too right?wherever you were.haha.it went like 'BABY BABY BABY!!*whines*NO NO!!BABY!!!'.ya..sort of.haha.and when we wanted to move off,there was TheScaryMan.no really.he was.he followed us all the way from the beach to harbourfront.gee.but then we made ourselves believe that he was lost and since we were on our way back,he followed.STILL!no need to be all creepy and eerie right!pfft.

oh well,chiobu's with me and hamsem's with *my cheena.we exchanged but i told *my cheena hamsem doesnt have much songs but *my cheena said 'nehmind la.hamsem got money maker can already.'haha!*my cheena can be the most silly-est cheena sometimes.haha.okay this is a long entry.haha.

i is to study for accounts now.

take me up to heaven and drift into forever.*my all.





moderate?mediocre?meagre?middle?monotonous?gee!i knew the word i was searching for started from 'm'.and those were the words that lingered in my head while i was sitting for my marketing paper.i was desperately searching for it to complete my product life cycle stages and i couldnt find it, no matter how much i scratched my head.actually 2 strands of my puny hair came out know!alamak.wasted 2 strands.anyway in the end, i decided on the word, mid-stage.i have no idea where that came from but heck.after the paper ended i checked through my notes and found out that the word was maturity.BAH-NESS.

anyway, called *my cheena and talked.*my cheena was at bugis with mummy.they buying stuffs for *my cheena's rendering.i still dont quite get the idea of it but listening to *my cheena explain is amusing.haha.we had talked about *my cheena's insecurities the night before and i really wish to umm, make *my cheena secure.haha!sounds stoopid but i really do want to make *my cheena secured.okay listen to this, we've been communicating in malay for the past few days and you still sound adorable.people, this is going to be a teeny weeny bit mushy-fied so i suggest you people move away.haha!

hanya untuk mu.

aku tidak mahu melihat kau cemburu kerana kau sahaja yang ku cintai. aku bukan yang dulu lagi. aku tidak akan memainkan perasaan walau apa pun terjadi. aku tahu apa kau merasai apabila aku berbual rapat dengan seseorang. tetapi percayalah hanya kau mempunyai mahkota dihati ini. aku tidak berbohong. aku akan memberi mu segala kepastian yang kau mahu. aku sudah tak nak mencapai bulan dan bintang lagi. aku hanya mahu mencapai kepercayaan mu. aku cinta padamu. tangan ku hanya mahu mendakap mu.

*promised.

i seriously need to brush up on my malay mann.hah!





my morning went fine.met with *my cheena and the cousin and went for breakfast at mac.been awhile since i ate egg mcsmuffin.yummey!then went to have a snip.then went home and watched 'heart'.some indonesian movie and damn was it sad.what would one do if one's other half is dying of some heart-related illness and one's bestfriend's leg had to be amputated cause she fell while running?mann..that bestfriend developed feelings for the lead actor but he fell for someone else.then she was running cause she wanted to go away from it all but fell.and in the end she gave up her heart to the lead actor's other half in order to be with him eventhough she's gone.God,that was sad.really.

anyway,i didnt do anything constructive at all today.just slept,a lot.haha.and my papers start on tuesday instead of monday.i made myself and other people believe it was monday.haha!oh well,was missing *my cheena so decided to drop by.wanted to get apple pie but was sold out.sorry.but *my cheena was pissed with work and so was the cousin.mann..they looked like work drained the lives outta them.tsk tsk..the cousin got sick somemore.alamak..how liddat..work is a piss-er.

went home and mummy just came back from her dinner and dance.haha!mummy rocks when it comes to these kinda functions.haha!she wore some dress and i cant really explain how it is.nehmind i'll try.it has two pieces;inside and out.then inside is some turtleneck and outside is a dress with fat sleeves.erm,nehmind,i shall stop trying.erase whatever picture in your mind.haha!anyway,she even made me make an appointment to do her make-up at eastpoint.haha!mummy mummy,you the best.loves.

*dress+suit+pulling tie=oooohhhh*





i am tired.work yesterday was tiring.doing everything myself is not good for my health.liyana ended at 4.there was this new girl who is permenantly posted to marina from j8 and she ended at 8.nisa didnt turn up for work.actually doesnt really matter if she did or didnt.anyway,some guy from imm or suntec came down to take over.and i was doing closing with him,shakila and sity.not a very good combo.they know absolutely nothing about closing.COLIN!never do this to me again.i stress on the word NEVER.

i was tired when i went home but i missed *my cheena so badly.i am not good when it comes to being away from my significant other.so we texted.actually *my cheena texted first while i was changing.anyway, we texted all the way til i reached home and caught half an hour's of nip tuck.then *my cheena had to continue rendeering cause need to hand in already.by the time *my cheena finished, i was asleep and didnt tell cause i set my proflie to make sure i wake up when *my cheena texted.but nooooo, i was sleeping like a corpse.even corpses wake up.gee.sorry.

not meeting today cause it's homework and study day for us.i no like-y exams.accounts especially.ahh..everybody knows the reason why.haha!oh well, if i dont do well *my cheena would blame me for working practically the whole week with 3 full shifts and a 12-11 on my back.then my parents would be disappointed considering how delighted they were for my first module.okay, i am becoming _____.insert whatever word.i dont even know.haha!

dummdeedumm.is my *my cheena back yet?mann, today will move se-low.bah.

*you dont know how much i wanted to go there and wrap my arms around *you.





WORK WAS A BLOODY PAIN IN THE NECK!

it seemed that everybody was pissed at everything and everybody else.and i was still okay til that stooopid table wanted to change the ice-cream flavour.still remembered.table 6.tell earlier la!alamak.and i sorry to the people who saw me pissed.and to those whom maybe i was a teeny weeny pissed at.ya.koosit got pissed.tina got pissed.kistel was half an hour late.haha!but colin was the most pissed-ded of all.OMFG!i was scared.he got pissed twice and i was there to witness it.chey..like want to take testimony la.haha.but balls i was shaking right til my bones.gee.

but after work was good.tina proved how strong her pudgy was.haha.it was strong enough to pull the shutter out of its place.tsk tsk.i am officially terrified of her trying to rip my neck off if ever i annoy her beyond the point of annoyance.haha.then koosit and kistel and kartina and kar-fiza and i went to eat at mac.haha!i think fiza's name should start with a 'K'.haha.ya.yay!

*my cheena is not quite amused with my work schedule next week.i am sorry.me and my big mouth.i will see to it that i get the neccessary punishment.done by me.thankyouverymuch.i dont want you to spank me and get all silent.i scared.

*regenites rocks.haha!





today is eating day.i woke up and ate roti prata;one egg,one plain.then mummy cooked fried rice and chicken.so i had that.met *my cheena and had ice-cream and tuna puff and VANILLA COKE!haha.i love VANILLA COKE!yay!at work i had peanut butter bicuits,fries,some stuff that kistel bought and meatballs.in conclusion,i am going to become a balloon in a few days.or maybe like,now.haha!

*my cheena and i bought matching shirts!haha.cheesy la i know.but we never really wore the same stuffs.we dont have much care in what we wear.*my cheena looks good in whatever which makes my equity lower.but what the heck.i love *my cheena.

then i wanted to shove *my cheena in the water but *my cheena scared.haha!it funny.and i finally saw what chawanmushi is!haha.now i can erase the thought of it being a mushy cup.cause cause chawan is cup.in malay la alamak.haha.

after that came work which was not much of an excitement.and i was missing *my cheena cause the other half was all the way in simei watching a play.i wanted to be there too la!but nehmind.

*my cheena,i read your bestfriend's blog and this shit made me laugh like HAHAHA!

then i went to nap, onli to get woken up by jason who apparently asked me for my the hse agent's number. BUT i was so tired that i was actually sleep walking so i heard him asking for ,get this"speakers from my NYP classroon for the cordless phone in my hse". so what do i do? i call misso and go"eh u noe where is the speakers for my cordless phone nt?"HAHHAHAHAHAHA. the conversation went on with misso going" uh?!! i misso u know!! what u asking for?"and me goin, "speakers!! speakers for phone." i then got annoyed with misso, hung up and went to lay on the couch, telling jason, "NO SPEAKERS OK?!!!" i was pissed, i have no idea why.THEN I FINAALY WOKE UP when jason goes." what fucking speakers? i want the number!!!"

HAHAHA!YOUR BESTFRIEND SHOULD BE A STAND UP COMEDIAN!only while sleep-walking though.haha!

ps.dont tell the bestfriend okay?haha!

*i want to lie on a bed of roses.with you.





this is for you.

when we first met,i knew you were a beauty.you were in the store,trying to not further choke the sink.not a very good sight,but you looked good doing it.and the first thing you said after 'hi' was 'eh you got the same watch as nad and nana!'.random,cause i did not know who nad and nana was.i just came.thankyouverymuch.haha!

behind that suaku-ness,i saw a better sight.one who i wanted to be with.you made my palms sweat,you caused me to stutter,you literally made my heart jump-twice.everytime we talked,i just wanted to smile my way home.everytime my phone beeps and you texted,i became so overjoyed,i couldnt sleep.nah,im not exageratting.really,search me if you want.

but i knew there were so many others trying to get you.my friends knew i was falling fast and hard.and i knew there wasnt much cushion i was going to land on.*people i talked to asked me to let it go and forget about it.for the very fact that you will never come.i still held on.even when you turned me down on valentine's.i still held on.til i found out about ____.that was the last slab i could take.____ got you like -kaboom- that,and i was pushed away.okay,this is so not good for my reputation.simply put,i was desperate.i couldnt think anymore.i was at my lowest point.even dust had more value than what i was.

we led our own lives but i never lost that teeniest feeling of pain when you were with someone else.worse,the *other one had occasional pick-you-ups.well i was engrossed with flirting.i had so many flings i cant remember when all started and ended.even the people at work realised about my flirting.and they reacted with constantly bugging me to flirt and get corn muffins.haha!nonsense.

i never really thought of anything when we started becoming close.considering the people at work are tight,i thought we were like that.even when you called me *baby,i thought nothing of it.look at koosit and me reminding her of baby huey.yea.tokyo drift was also another friend date.gee.

ah.then came 300806.and changi airport.where we began.not really.but close.i dont know what else to tell you.it's all out.all them dirtylittlesecrets.


*when two souls intertwine






i am freezing in school..yeap i am in school.using the net.free what,use to my greatest advantage uh.but then the computer cant detect my thumbdrive,does not have microsoft words so i have to save my stuffs in notepad instead,so basically,it is not much of use.but waiting for lyla to end school so can go to her place and print out my stuffs.plus bum around and trash her place.as usual.

missing *my cheena la.cant meet today and tomorrow cause my deadline's tomorrow and im working on wednesday.this is shit.i no like-y being away.but nehmind!got thursday.i'll be patient and wait.haha!in the meantime can bounce and roll and sing and burp and slide like nobody's business.YAY!haha..

am currently listening to Run It by Missy and somehow or rather i am reminded of cheerleaders.haha!2,4,6,8 who do we appreciate!haha..okay *my cheena will kill me.*YOU,YOU,YOU.WAIT UH!I'LL BITE YOU!RARR!.haha!*my cheena is sexy when jealous.

okay i feel my blood freezing and my heart is beating fast.i shall step out for awhile.but then again,i just got lazy.haha!


*your body is a wonderland.





my friend called me in the morning to ask what was the questions that were asked in the O levels for literature last year.you do not do that to me..never ever..gee balls.for a moment i thought i was sitting for it and considering i was still in bed,i couldnt remember.i dont want to remember.haha!hope she had fun.haha!

well,no need to do marketing presentation today cause my lecturer is super nice and he just wants us to print it out instead.gave more time somemore.haha!he rocks.dr michael fong.he always wears clothes that are skin tight and uses big,fat ties.he looks so retro..haha..he has one of the most striking-est yellow tie i have ever seen.and considering he's a pencil,it not looking good.haha!

met *my cheena after school at smaffles place.couldnt meet at bugis cause it rained and i got stuck in it.haha..the stuffs at sim lim are all the same but needed to get a thumbdrive so we searched back the shop that i saw.cause it sold a 256 for $29.okay what..haha..was supposed to get it yesterday but i was short of $2.how dumb.

then went to kino cause *my cheena wanted to get stuffs for class.but dont have the black cardboard thing so walked to bras basah.and we always end up asking where to go next.and the other half will always say dont know and ask back the same question.haha!yea,that's how we are.and for that,i'm head over heels.so decided to spend our last cents to catch a movie;step up.it was drag-gy.i no like-y much.and i so wanted to catch it!so so bad.but then disappointment.i sorry.

the times we've spent and have yet to spend is something i adore.'you okay?you not hurting right?'haha.


*when xiaolin showdown means more than just a cartoon.





woke up at 9am which meant i was late for work..haha..oh well..10 minutes doesnt really make much of a deal..nothing interesting happened..bumped into fyera on the train..and she cut-ted her hair!alamak!everytime fyera cuts hair,i will never know..but then today!she got concave hair..which doesnt really compliment her..but what do i care..haha..

then [you] received phone call later in the evening and got nonsense..im sure that lady was having a fit of rage..how come $5 with tape cannot use?can la..alamak..pakcik/uncle/mama shop will accept mah..what only..anyway [you] let your emotions get the better of you..gee..i wanted to hug [you] so much longer than that..and say that everything was gonna be alright and i wanted to listen to your story and and be of help..but then there were stuffs to do and other people were asking what happened..so i let them..

journey home with kistel is like any ordinary journey home with kistel..she and her obsession with tappered people..haha..how nice..told me she was no more staying in her hostel for the next semester cause hostel horrible..haha..i think she just doesnt want to be deprived of oreos and nutella anymore..she making story to cover it up..haha..and my sentence structures are gradully failing..haha..

oh well..am gonna text *the one now..wonder if *the one's homework is done..haha..opening again tomorrow..bliss.


when it rains,i want to be with [you].





AND I AM BACK LIKE BAMM BAMM BOOM!hahaha..the internet is FINALLY fixed..actually must fix the god-help-the-crashed-computer first..then ya la..the net was biskut-ted and didnt work the few days cause singnet apparently is dumb..i gotta plug out all my phone lines before this thing works..how pucking stoopid..then how?no need have home phone la liddat..goondu..

okay..today i have work..pfft..that brightened up my day..haha..[you] came into mind la..and for the first time the word 'work' really made me happy..haha..it panas outside..no need to brighten my day much more already..haha..

oh oh!went to city hall and bought for *my all nail polish![you] have weird urges..i adore..haha..anyway i have to admit,i sucked..there were too many maroons and dark red and reddish nail polish-es that i nearly went bonkers..not that i am much of a sane person la..but still..and the sales person was completely helpful!help me gain more knowledge on knowing absolutely nothing on nail polish..uh huh..i said it right..aiya..next time right,*my cheena,when i ask if you want it,nod okay?no need say anything..just nod..so i did the next best thing and called my bestie..but she was at simei so i cant spank her and say 'faster choose la'..haha..then she'll be like 'okay okay..wait la..'i love her..NADIAH AL-ANSARI BINTE HASSAN!YOU ARE KOOKOO BUT I LOVE YOU!and do you know how much i god damn miss your ass you ass..haha

wah kao..i hate this!i had so much to say la!but all gone..i want to ram my head on the wall..like KABOOM!my head is explosive know!i am ranting nonsense..i blame school.

see [you] in a bit.

ps:i think i need to change my blogskin.NADIAH AL-ANSARI BINTE HASSAN!you know what im gonna ask you,dont you?haha..when you end your o's,i will track you down.haha!