i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

it's been raining cats,dogs,mice,cows,ducks and pigs these few days.gee.it has been awhile since i saw THE SUN.hello MrSun!are you shy to come out and shine?hello!!??you can dry up all the rain to let the itsy-bitsy spider to climb all over again know?and help the flooded countries too.and thomson road.you better come out ya.okay.

went out with *my cheena yesterday and ate at seoul garden.i hope that satisfied *my cheena's virgin tastebuds.haha!so sad never been to seoul garden before.aiyoyo.what have *you been doing the past 17 years,baby?huh?huh?after this we must go to NYDC.i havent been there.haha!then then!!!i got present!!!hahaha!!yay yay!!bluek people!all of you are jealous!i know.i can see it in your concentrating eyes.haha!nanny nanny poo poo!i is got shades from *my cheena!haha!yay!*my cheena has been listening to me whine and kick a fuss on shades.i want shades!!haha.oh...so this is a way to shut me up.nice.haha.i meant that in a good way though.haha.it worked.haha.

then we caught Death Note 2!you people are jealous too right!?cause we caught it faster than you have.haha.but it was a looooonnngggg show though.interesting,kinda predictable but it's all good.not a bad follow up.ya.haha.but if you're running late dont watch it.really.you think it's going to end but noooo.it'll continue.haha.i said kinda predictable.not entirely.okay.ya.

i had my typhoid jab today.was nothing compared to the injuries ive obtained at work.so it wasnt painful.but costed $25.quite a bit considering the doctor wiped alcohol on me,injected and placed a plaster.haha.then went to meet nadd,fyera and hafidz.haha.watched abit of amittyville horror and scary movie 3.haha!stoopid shows.watched the former a couple of times before.and the latter was just down right hilarious.and a bit of dirty scenes.but hey,it's scary movie.what can one expect.haha.

the significant is going for christmas dinner tonight instead of yesterday cause grandma wasnt feeling too good.i think that was the reason.haha!it slipped my mind.sorry.haha.anyway,didnt meet today and not meeting tomorrow cause im working.but not complaing that much cause will be working same shifts on thursday and friday.and will be off on saturday and sunday.ahh.serenity.

twozerozeroseven is coming up people.hang on for it.

cradle me in your arms and lull me to sleep.





sometimes i wish i could sit and just stare at you.i know i'll never ever get bored.you're the most beautiful person ive ever known;inside and out.i know ive said it to you time and time again.and you always argue back.but i know what im seeing and im sure about it.your mood swings,i understand.and i said you can always swing them at me.and i meant it.be it at work,on a date or even on the phone.i understand.everybody has one of those days.dont feel bad about how you treat me,cause i have those moments too.

i dont know why ive been complimenting you like every minute of the day.but im not doing it cause im cheating on you.and no,the compliments are not a disguise to hide the truth.i promise.i have no time to cheat.even if i do have time,it'll be spent with you.you silly pudgy,letting your imagination run so very wild.

we live in our own world.where we believe MrMoon is made of cheese and the MilkyWay is made of chocolates.and even if sometimes our world crumbles,we always pick the pieces up and put it back together.cause it's only you and me.we compromise everytime we argue.cause we know we hate disagreements.and since that is out of the way,there's nothing else that can stop us.i know there are times when you want to kick me and hit me so hard cause i talk too much to other people.and you,my love,consider talking=flirting.but i have total respect for you and i would never play behind your back.and respect is a huge word,baby.although i still have to admit,you look sexy when jealous.

okay.there.all ive wanted to say.

lets build a house on cloud nine.





went to the airport with *my cheena.we miss that place.first time we stepped there was unforgettable.mann.i wish i could replay it over and over again.and i know i'll never get sick of it.anyway,went to popeye's for lunch and i had no cash.so yea.*my cheena paid.yay!watched the cartoon as well.haha!been awhile since the cartoon was aired.bah.we were tired from last week so we relak-ed one corner.haha!back to the malay roots.not really.okay.

the best wanted to go escape but it rained so wanted to catch movie.and in the end she went shopping.haha!alamak.nadd nadd.tsktsk.'pergi shopping uh.mango 50% discount.'haha.once again.nadd nadd.sorry didnt follow.i cant watch a movie cause im totally broke and you, best, know why.we'll meet tomorrow which is today.yay!haha.and we is to get that money from the mean ex.ya ya?okay.

well.the BIG brother had his first day of work.haha.so cute.and he is the only guy in his class.haha!and he gets bullied around.and he's the oldest.haha.he is working at CIAS as some customer service person.haha.and he's under training.got test to sit for somemore.hence,the class part.haha.

E.R is going to be shown in about a few minutes.i want to watch.yay!

shelter me from stormy nights and hold me tight.





NADIAH AL-ANSARI IS THE BEST-EST BEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD HAVE.

haha.i sound stoopid.okay nehmind.anyway..lucky to have you,babe.and again,you will tumble upon this entry in about 65 years from now and we'll be all prune-y and wrinkly.but im sure i'll still mean it.ya huh.you keep filling me up with not only food but never ending laughter and showers of care and concern.and you support me in any decision i make,right or wrong.cause you want me to learn life itself.yet no matter how many mistakes ive made,you have stuck by me,like this new mole on my face.haha!okay that was not a very good example.haha!but nevertheless,you were with me.helping me push everybody and everything that pushed me and took advantages of me.you took great care of me and for that,i thank you.

yay!

i am recovering from yesterday's trauma and i feel stoopid for falling for your words one more time.i wanted to bang my head on the walls.every single wall that was present in my house.but nah.i finally got in touch with you but you slipped through.and i realised that i am gullible-y gullible.tsk!i am angry at myself now.pfft.

anyway.will be meeting the brady bunch tomorrow then meeting the workmates.haha!yay!outings rock.haha!i wonder where'll we go since we're heading to parkway.haha!never would have thought.parkway?haha.okay.koosit said so.haha!

48 hours. no more than that.





i trusted you.

yet you played me out.like mad.this thing SHOULD have ended years back.you SHOULD have told me the truth.the god damned entire truth.i really thought you ended it the first time she called but when she came down to school and find for me i was taken aback.but then you said you settled it already so i took your word for it.considering she didnt search for me anymore.

BUT!

she called me last night and mummy picked up the phone.and i called her back today to realise you didnt pay in full.shit.i gave you my trust,my life,my heart,my money.everything.i was there for you when you were in need.i helped you in every single shit ass way i could.for the very fact that we were in a relationship at that time.and you helped me when i was in need too.so it was a two way thing.but this is waaayy over the top.i have graduated.GRADUATED.i had plans for my next pay.i wanted to do so many from getting *my cheena and the bestfriends christmas presents to spending some for myself..im blaming myself to trust you so much and not having saved up money.cause i never thought you would have the heart to do this to me.doesnt pay to be nice does it.

now this enry conflicts about those who coloured my life and the *only one who never fails to.thanks.

fuck.







i was blog-hopping and wanted to go to koosit's.but i forgot to insert the '-ithink' part so i landed on another person's blog.and damn.she was a complete beembo.one of her sentences went like this 'I suppose everyone wanted to check out my dazzling beauty and admire my perfectly silky hair. Sigh, it is sure tough being pretty.'and then the rest of it included more sentences about her hair.gah!she is taking her o levels mind you.and and aiyo!part of me was amused and the other was turned off.pheesh.haha.

well well.what happened today.i dont have much recollection of it.haha.work went well.wendy was pissed.like mad.haha.she was literally screaming her head off.something about the salad then microwave then being lenient.haha!i didnt quite get the whole thing.haha.roy said that she was power.haha!it sounded better when he said it.haha.dont mess with wendy when pissed.really.haha.

then went to mac with *my cheena and fiza.then sat near merill lynch,which still reminds me of a steak house,because of the cow/bull/ox thing.haha!okay nehmind.ya took pictures and and with two bright lights aiming directly in my eyes,i was starry-eyed.haha.

going to orchard with *my cheena and the cousin tomorrow which is today to take pictures in quote mrbean booth unquote.haha.fiza say one.haha.ya.then will head to vivocity!ya huh.i dont know why we're going to vivo but ya.it's a nice place.just big.haha.and it has a huge Toys 'R' Us to crash.that,i like.haha.

*your smile makes me weak.





BARBOY!!YOU IS NEED TO LEARN TO CARRY MORE THAN ONE DRINK AT A TIME!GRR!!!!!

okay.basically that was work.i am too tired to list down the nitty gritty stuffs.bah.i missed *my cheena.as usual.haha!okay.

i dont want to talk about work cept that i went home with kistel and fiza.and kistel and i wanted to eat macs but fiza had to catch her last train.boo.anyway.kistel and i talked about stoopid stuffs.like how she has to socialize and how she thinks leonard is raymond cause koosit said so.haha.and and how bloated seahorses are when they're pregnant.haha!oh well.i miss the old bunch.they emphasized the 'fun' in dysfunctional.

hmm.*my cheena is working tomorrow which is today.haha.thank God.i hate work without *my cheena.hate hate hate.but yay!tomorrow which is today will be a better day.i am sure of it.i am very much looking forward to wednesday.haha!yay!

*you cover every definition of a better half.





this is a night post.haha.didnt have anything to do in the day anyway.oh well.nadd!!thanks for seoul garden!!!!haha.yes yes.when i get my pay i'll treat you to stuffs la.haha!mann.i would have starved.haha.you are life-saver!!!haha.okay.this is what vanilla coke does to me.

work was surprisingly fine.thank God.haha.i missed *my cheena!haha!but but before work went to chill with nadd,lyla,afie and nazz at the esplanade.was damn hot la.aiyo.but okay la.haha.missed the bestfriend la.she is a toot.haha!nehmind.it'll be aeons til she reads this.haha!

anyway.went to work after that and blablabla.i was not really super high but i was suffering from that sugar rush *my cheena endures everytime.haha!people were flirting with *my cheena but i didnt care much.it didnt get on my nerves.and that *my cheena asked to help was all that i needed to hear.ya huh.oh oh!and i worked with koosit today!!!!haha!!!i was happy.she has been missing for the most longest time.i missed her!!you hear/see that koosit?!!i said i missed you!!!haha!i miss miss koosit!miss koosit miss i!haha!okay.

fooooool shift tomorrow which is today.haha.did i make sense?i think i did.haha.okay.i am to sleep now.

i'll protect you from devastation.and from everything else.





i was reading my previous posts from january and february.then i thought about grandma.-sighs-.she was the best.the only parent of my parents i ever looked up to.considering she was the only one i really knew.mann she took care of me eversince birth and she went too fast.just a liitle bit too fast.flashbacks of her continue to come and i miss her.i really do.

i want to call *my cheena.but i cant let *my cheena hear me like this.oh well.just knowing *my cheena's in my heart is good enough.and reading the posts i wrote about *the past made me feel lucky and stoopid.i checked *my cheena out the first time we met then flirted abit.but then feelings were rejected.yet now,we are totally in love.ironic.but true.and im going for an interview at tcc.if i get it,times spent with *my cheena will be shortened.we meet at work everytime even if it was for a while.seeing each other keeps us contented.but i really want to have another taste of another place.haha!that rhymed.haha!okay.

well am meeting the bestfriend at 1pm.she is following me for the interview.yay!haha.she has always been there.feels good to say that.haha!okay.i is to bathe.

our hearts will still beat as one.no matter where we are.promise.





at long last i have ended my last paper.was a bloody hard one la but what the heck.it is done.what a load off.anyway met the significant other after my paper.was still sick but being stubborn as usual.haha!okay dont get pissed.haha.

well went down to town.got free drinks from starbucks cause there was some salvation army thing going on.and there was free drinks from 5pm til 7pm.any drink.haha!yasmeen yasmeen.you called me during my paper to tell me that.lucky i was in the toilet.haha!then we walked around.watched open season.haha!kookoo show uh but not bad.we wanted to catch 956 but it didnt show at cathay then we wanted to catch saw3 but it was R21.stoopid.but nehmind.at least i can get a guuuuuuuuddddd night's sleep cause horror movies scare the living day and night lights out of me.haha!hmm we bumped into *my cheena's primary school friend.talked abit.then *my cheena suffered stomach pains cause ya,notchet fully recover.but then wanted/needed to go out cause quote mummy complaining about her mummy unquote.haha!*my cheena is silly-fried.haha!char kway teow!haha.okay inside joke.

oh well.i hope *my cheena gets well soon.the tummy aches are just unbearable to witness.really.I TOLD YOU TO STAY HOME.but nehmind.you'd be miserable and i wouldnt want you to feel that way.anyway.*my cheena is in love with the medication.this is *my cheena's statement. 'no luh i'm fine babyy, i'll eat my green pills.i like them.'

the little things.





i am tired.i wouldnt have gotten out of bed if the thought of today is exam day flashed through my head.and abang's handphone was ringing so god damned loud la.and him being ever so deaf cant hear it blasting.even when i woke him up he went back to sleep.toot head.

did the usual.i didnt have the mood to dress up so i slacked my way through the wardrobe then went out.called *my cheena cause was working in the morning so i assumed *my cheena to be up.but *my cheena did not go to work cause was down with the stomach flu.alamak.i panicked a bit cause *my cheena had been vomitting since 5am.not a good thing.so i let *my cheena rest.

the paper was not greatly done.i literally did not know what i was writing about which is not good.i forgot the one of the 6Ps in the marketing mix and i generally did not write the essays with enough depth to cover my ass.i was just really tired and sleepy and worried.yea.*my cheena and i did not text for the whole day so i did the next best thing after i had lunch.sleep.i am a pig.anyway slept til 7.15.then we texted a bit and *my cheena had to take medication.so im sure *my cheena is in wozzy land right now.

well.i think im going to have a reealllyy early night.i is to sleep now.

my turn to cook maggi and make hot milo.





fuckstration.
one feeling.12 hours of it.

as usual.work is/was driving me nuts.i was really happy to see *my cheena,really happy.but the turn of events was just wah.cannot make it.my patience is limited when it comes to teaching people during busy hours.and abel had to put in the new guy in the bar.today.which is still a saturday cause i havent slept yet.anyway.he ah!alamak.he can do a gazillion times of the same drink but he'll still say he forgot what goes in it.grr!!!!

so i went outside and let *my cheena do the bar.and then i dont know what happened but then i was having a fit of anger+rage+jealousy+frustration+bah-ness all rolled into one.so i kept quiet.i didnt know what was happening what.so ya.but i hated each time ____ made *you smile.i hated it each time ____ made *you laugh.i hated it.i just did.the hatred was too much and it seeped into my body like like poison and i couldnt take it.even a breather didnt help much.to add to that so many people from *your past had to come down.on the same day.they just HAD to.i wanted to bundle them up and kick them into the sea.i know *you were concerned.i know it was stoopid and dumb and petty of me to feel that way.but i did.and i didnt like it.one bit.it's not your fault.i felt a pinch of what *you've felt before,baby.anyway this is the reason why being jealous is not my forte.cause i end up hurting people.and i dont like hurting people.especially *you.but *you were patient enough.and i love you.being patient with me is GOD DAMNED admirable.i think you're GOD SENT.haha!okay anyway.im sorry sweetheart.i really am.that thing we call the workplace is making us pfft-ed.

but we cleared it up and the night went well.baby,you're my all.you accepted the very in-your-face fact that i was a flirt.and yet you loved me with all you've got and even a little bit more.you dont know how much gratitude i have for that.and you dont know how much i dont want to lose you.and im going to say this again.you dont know how much i love you.only you.you're not one of my flings nor one-night only.ive put all that behind me.you,my love,is my present and future.that's all that matters.

and baby.a toupee is not a topi.a topi is malay for a hat or a cap.a toupee,my sugar coated,is a wig to cover halfbalding people.remeber that okay?you funny little bunny.haha!

you and me.