i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

had breakfast!LONTON!haha.yes,without the 'g'.i like to spell it that way.why?haha.

then i shall skip the not-so-better part of my day since it consisted of work.

fast forward!

dinner was good.mum made steak.oh my God.haha.i think she should stay home more and watch all the cooking shows available.haha.then can cook all nice nice stuff.haha.got dessert somemore.sheesh.she the best.haha.

i think i am listening to songs that pollute my mind.haha.with lyrics like 'testosterone boys and hot looking girls..something something faster faster.'haha.mann.the song does not include the something something though.haha.ya okay.

ive always wondered how it would be like to have a twin.random thought.haha.

hearts are often broken with words left unspoken.

mine's still intact.





we caught up with stuffs today.i missed being in their company.all those nonsensical/sensible chats and their continuous flow of joy.they have been missed.tsk.now their hugs mean more than it ever used to.why ah?haha.i think im growing old.haha.

they made every moment un-wasted.they made every moment full.with either their own news or with cards.haha.nadd with her ever constant thing with the way she deals and shuffles them.haha.and most of the time,i worry if she might tangle up her hands.haha.lyla with her 'shut up nadd' and other stuff like that.haha.

bah.stayed so long at lyla's.felt like i didnt want to leave.gee.

*my cheena is going to slaughter me soon.haha.

okay.not funny.

haha.ya.

breathe baby.





when i was on my road to recovery,i thought i would never cure that aching feeling inside of me.but you came along and proved that i am worthy of more.

for months you've stayed with me like stars to the moon.you've watched over me every day and night,making sure i am always alright.i never knew that i would be this blessed.there is something about that winning-smile on your face; a smile that symbolizes sincerity and reflects a heart that is filled with love so pure,it overcomes every fear I had.no mongsters would dare come by.and those dimples are just,heart-warming.and lucky is an understatement to describe what i go through each day since we met.i have always asked myself, is 'Thank You' really enough to show my appreciation?i wish i could say more.if only the words would reach my heart.

amid the gloom and travail of existence suddenly to behold a beautiful being; and as instantaneously to feel an overwhelming conviction,that with that fair form,our destinies must be entwined.i tried hard not to believe in love at first sight.i wait not for the one who makes me take a second look,but for the one who makes me never want to look away in the first place.in life,we sometimes meet a person we're not supposed to fall in love with,for it could only cause trouble and pain.logic tells us to stop,but our heart says, 'How could it be wrong when it feels so right?'.it's crazy,i know.it's like finding something that you haven't been looking for but have always wanted.there might be fireworks or harmony,but you just feel it without words or sparks.it can be a bumpy road and not always perfect.but in the end,love is worth the wait.

you have endured my every move,my every moodswing,my every action,my every word.yet you hang on strong eventhough at times,i know you feel pain.i know i can go beyond your nerves but i try to stop myself.for moments like that,i'm sorry.

you're the best.and you know it.

if ever i believe my work is done then i'll start back at one.





i will classify today as one of those days.i have never heard ben curse so much.haha.but i wouldnt blame him.cause i was cursing as well.work hasnt been nice.especially since it's month end.pfft.

it seemed that the people none of us wanted to see came down.han,helen(some lady.haha.),syah,another lady and a man oh plus abel.and they were picking on sity.her incompetency and stuffs.and as usual she would bring it out on us.me and ben got the best parts.so nice to come to work and hear rants.and i,for one,has never been so insulted in my entire life.

you want to vent your anger nehmind.i listen.but wahlao no need push your luck uh.my patience got limit know lady.i got put means i got put uh.i put also cause want give you face.cherry on frosty lychee cannot be eaten ah?come to me and ben with your face and ask who do lychee and where's the cherry.never come across your mind the person ate it and put the cherry stalk away ah?you fucking stupid right.dont believe me and ben then go ask farah who sent it.cover her view from us so that we wouldnt tell her to say yes right.fucking childish ah you.then paiseh donno how to say sorry uh.still can say 'if one more time i kena scolding from anyone,i will fuck the both of you'.bloody hell.face put inside pocket and fuck your way off.

then friend come.order just printed out and i just finished steaming milk and making espresso shot.ben key wrongly so i took abit of time to tell him.then you come with abel and ask me why drink take so long.wah you damn pro you get your butt in and do uh.your friend what.but nehmind every move i make you watch and comment.so i do another one.tell me cappucino put milk first then foam.i ask you if the milk and espresso shot mix then how.you donno how to answer say uh.give me answer so perfect 'do what i always do uh'.and what might that be?you say pressure is under you.ha.pressure is overtaking you lady.

i couldve walked off just like what *my cheena told me to do.but it never really crossed my mind.i just wanted to slap her so hard my hand would hurt.and forcing me to work the next day would do you no good.

told the family.haha.good pillar of strength.haha.then told them that she will be doing the same course as me when in mdis.i pray i get in though.anyway,she would be doing her diploma and i would be further-ing mine.and for once,i feel good.cause she is a prick.a very nasty one.

im glad you were there.

6th.