i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

the only productive thing ive done for myself in the past 6 hours ive been awake is....eat.haha.im still smelly and in last night's clothes.i have realised i cant really stay at home the whole day cause i cant find anything to do.but when something grabs my attention and i need to do something about it,i dont.haha.

i have procrastinated alot today.and it doesnt feel good.haha.i shall sit here and blog.well at least im doing something rather than stoning my life away.

well.yesterday's work was good.oh i thank God.how so very much i thank Him.and i know the main reason was cause it wasnt really very busy outside but i wished i could say the same in the bar.and im so sorry that stallone and king had to suffer with beberd.bluek to beberd.

so cris,asraf,kang wen(the newbie),tina and i did outside til closing.akbar was til 9.anyway we were all cool outside not knowing what to do.walk here walk there.i could breathe for awhile cause if tina and i were doing inside we'd be cursing under our breaths.beberd always said there isnt any maria's to clean after you so clean it yourself.mann i wish i can tell her that.gee.sometimes i want to point at my nametag and tell her im not maria and i dont look like a maid.though i dont think any maids would want to work for her.oh and no offence to maids ah.how i know if got maids stalking me then they read this and come and clean my mouth.heh.

i dont see the reason why she needs to shout and break down and judge everybody.now everybody's finding new jobs and beberd will so be in trouble.orh hoh!and and beberd,no dating while working.so you can ask your area manager to buzz off and quit your hmm lets see nearing to a year affair?go go.

and poor cris just found out about it.and now she's looking down on abel.sigh.what a disappointment.

beberd told me a couple of times she thinks she seduces married men.cause she feels andrew from kenny rogers flirts with her.*pukes.oh boy.since maybe you JUST realised that,you could stop what you're doing?and quit telling tina and i about horoscopes.we actually dont want to know.

haha.okay im not pissed.just want to let these go.haha.

beberd's face is just waiting to be slapped.haha.

nehmind.God never gives us tests which He thinks we will fail at.right?right.

redbull gives you wings.





eating too much kuehs is making me have a toothache.i hope i dont have to visit the dentist.please.i dont like the thingamajikena they force in the teeth.pain la.and then sometimes there are hotheaded dentists.wince abit only kena scold.idiot.haha.












alas,the last day of the fasting month.mann i actually liked the fasting month.haha.well it's not everyday i hold my hunger pangs and dehydrate my tongue.it was a good month that passed.appreciated everything a little more.

tomorrow i will be working til 2.yes i have been questioned many times why i asked to work but i'd rather not be sleeping.yea.haha.and mum would be pissed cause i actually would wake up hmm maybe around 12 and there would be nobody to help her arrange the kueh.no no im not running away from it just dont want to make her pissed.

there was one raya we got pissed at each other cause i was going to place a rather hot bowl on the table runner and she was afraid it'd melt and would get stuck.huh?and the other one was cause i woke up late and she had to heat up the dishes and arrange the kuehs by herself.so yea.no more of these kinda sessions.though i said sorry after.heh.

anyway PAPA IS BAAACCCKKKK!!haha.yayness people.hee.

okay im getting sleepy la.

eh just in case im busy stuffing myself with all the yummehs out there i wanna wish everybody,regardless,SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!haha.and sorry if my actions or words once,twice or many many times hurt you in anyway.next time just slap me.haha.this somehow doesnt apply to nadd thankyouverymuch.i have suffered many unnecessary beatings from you.but nevertheless you are being loved by me.hee.and have fun people.take care though.dont drink and drive!umm but if you drink f&n or syrup or coke and pepsi can drive ah.no worries.haha.

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preparations are begining to tire me out.but it's all good.the house has many cookies.and i tasted all to make sure they're nice.haha.choosing curtains with mum is a little hard.and some were too expensive.so we settled for orange ones that were okay priced.i think.well mum as usual brought the price down.i wonder how she manages to do it.and why cant i ever grasp her technique.haha.she said we came from woodlands so give her a good price.haha.tsktsk.she always told me to ask for half the price but sometimes it doesnt really work.

i have realised that i like chilli sauce.i put it with everything i eat.i use it like underwear.not that i wear it though.that would be hot.have you realised im tired and im typing nonsense?haha.but i want to continue.

i miss nad and laila.i hope nad saves up all her money and when she has enough,she can buy over wing tai asia so that she can have access to all topshop/man and dorothy perkins stuff.those are the only two places she goes to get her clothes.for now.and mann she can browse for a good hour or so.and it's not really guarenteed she'll buy something.she'll just touch here touch there then question alot.haha.oh well.

papa is coming home on the eve of hari raya.i am psyched!haha.been awhile since i saw him.the last time he came back was BIG brother's birthday and he brought back all his electronics mann.aiyo.then dumped it in my room.double aiyo.

oh oh.i am not convinced the lady working at simei's 7-11 is a dude.

stop and breathe.





we have got less than a week to raye!!haha.ya just making me feel better.less than a week.haha.til then clean the house,clean the sty i sleep in,take out the curtains,fix back the curtains,sweep,mop,lay the carpets yadayadayada....told mum i want to go out to avoid doing such work.haha.but but im nice.haha.

my brother has just realised he has 9 helmets.NINE.gosh.does he really need to put on that many helmets at one go?tsktsk.psycho.haha.

fasting month is bearing more customers than any other month.WHY AH?do they rely solely on the fact that secret recipe is halal and since they're fasting they cant possibly eat at xiao long bao?haha.okay maybe not there but umm hmm like at swensens or something.or maybe they didnt have much choice cause everywhere is packed la ya.i shall stick to that theory.

i came to work at 6 one fine day to find a malay family eating.and i thought it was time to break fast.haha.i think they were malay.they spoke malay.haha.oh well.maybe they were following a different time zone.haha.

til this day,i havent seen beberd fast.SHE IS ALWAYS EATING OR DRINKING.and sometimes i think her promotion is getting to her head.and no matter how hard i try to be oblivious to my surroundings,sometimes i cant help feeling disgusted by the affair.i wanted to use turned off but i cant be turned on by looking at beberd and that married man.aiyoyo.i wonder why he got married.got too much money ah?

anyway.i was reading koosit's blog and i kinda miss math.haha.and koosit just to show you how mathematical i can get the answer is 7 hundreds 2 tens and 3 ones.repeat twice please.haha.oh oh and you are being missed!i think if you were to see me now you'd have a glimpse of hope.I HAVE HAIR!haha.though ive always did.but you never seem to see it.haha.

okay.done.

dont fall in love with me,im just a dancehall drug.