i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

being ill is a great diet but im sure nobody wants to invest in it.after my attempts to convince people im not very ill and i can overcome this cause it's mind over matter,a visit to the doc's crashed my hopes.but im still not ill.i refuse to believe i am.haha.although the temperature was rather high and i felt head and body aches.haha.

well i didnt really want to go to the doc actually but the night before i was sleeping with my tshirt,zipped up jacket,jeans and socks and i closed the door and didnt turn on the fan.BUT i didnt perspire one drop.so i found that weird.the thermometer showed 38.5 and at that moment i said okay,maybe im a wee bit ill.haha.so anyway i got my meds cabbed to eastpoint to grab something to eat and went home.

nothing else interesting happened actually but i didnt send cris and king to the airport though.SORRY!im gonna miss them.

oh oh!did you see that guy who was singing jennifer hudson's song on american idol?the one who wore red pants?HAHA.he is downright hilarious!and rude.he not shy ah?haha.and and a lady who wore a blue dress with a silver belt?she has BAZOOKAS!heh.sorry.

truth be told,i wanna go back to school.

im spinning around.





today was a good day.i wish every other day would be like this.

after hearing mum and dad coming home from the market,i had to get up.cause i know there'll be MAKAN!haha.but no they didnt buy nething.so since dad needed to change his jeans to another size i followed along.i really wanted to eat.haha.

when we got home,smelly brother just woke up and seeing his smelly face i decided to be nice and let him take my food.AND AND yesterday he dropped his phone while riding his bike on the road.SO SO his handphone kena run over by a car!haha.and it still can be used.wahlao hardcore la.haha.okay i sound like a ____.haha.he went to get a new phone which is actually the same model and colour.haha.couldnt get the black one so yea.anyway he had his stuffs in the previous memory card so he dont want to change.or something like that.on the bright side,i told him since not many of his friends know what happened then he'll be shielded from shame.haha.

my family excluding smelly brother who went back to sleep after getting his phone,went for dinner at mad jack's.and boy oh boy was it disappointing.you had to go to the counter and order,their food wasnt what any of us expected and their cakes were so hard i could barely poke my fork through it.the three of us were sitting outside and i am sure i lost all the calories from running away from the naughty cats.i think it knew i was scared and it DELIBERATELY lied on the floor beside my chair.see tina,i told you they were scary.and it rolled around somemore.i wanted to faint.haha.

i really hope dad lessens his smoking.

oh oh went to watch 27 dresses yesterday.it was mediocre.i think love movies are meant to make one cry.cause that's what love is right right?you're overjoyed by love,you cry tears of joy.you're hurt by love,you cry tears of pain.and i made sense so im right.haha.anyway dont watch it if you want to catch something really good.stay home and watch vcds instead.but yesterday's shopping for work clothes was fun!haha.

and and we bumped in to neelofar!who was lost in one of the many towers of suntec.i too did not know which tower.haha.but she was lost,had a rose in her hand and was talking to laila.not much help.hee.

i hope laila and nad are doing fine.nad needs to grow oranges cause she's lacking vitamin C's.or you can take cod liver oil with orange which is mmm mmm good!haha.

love is patient-love is kind-love is slowly losing your mind.





i think simon has mellowed in this season of american idol.

and i think i should mellow down too.





LIKE FINALLY AFTER SO LONG I GOT BACK MY PHONE.GEE!okay ya.i know i made alot of people get mad at sony ericsson cause of the very lousy service they have.they said they'll call but i didnt even receive a ring.and they gave me back my phone after a month of excuses.and they made me feel like killing them cause they told me stuff like the shipment is delayed because of the hoilday season and when it still wasnt ready they said THEY WERE HAVING A GLOBAL SHORTAGE!what the hell?!if i knew this was going to happen i wouldnt ge a sony ericsson phone la.to tell me they're having a shortage means they're creating such lousy phones so many people are experiencing the same problem in a short period of time.right right?biatch.

anyway went to the training at build a bear workshop yesterday.kinda fun.haha.oh and toot and i got the same job!yay!it felt weird that we werent working together after so long.but this is a breakthrough.haha.

i heard the parents argue last night.no actually i heard my dad's raised voice.so although i was scared and got worried,i decided to tell myself 'nah,papa's talking in his sleep'.heh.i was desperate in finding something to calm myself so since i didnt quite hear my mum,i came to that conclusion.heh.i hope they're doing alright.no no they are doing alright.happy place happy place.haha.

im currently reading a book,yes i am reading.hmm it's called tolstoy lied by rachel kadish and mann when i sink myself in a book i mean it literally.haha.it is veerryyy addictive.nice book.and i judged that book by its cover.not all impressions are wrong.

bumpy roads make me sick.





i walked.from cityhall to marina to esplanade to suntec to raffles city to peninsula plaza to funan to central and back all over again.yay.i nearly got lost but well i stress on the word nearly.haha.okay the real story was i wanted to walk to bugis instead.then i took the wrong turn and ended up at the other side.so i didnt really get lost.ya okay.hah.

you know,sometimes hope is a friend but it can be rather disappointing.and i despise anything related to disappointment.right now i feel like one.i know what's on your mind.i can read it like a book.but i dont want to touch on the topic.i know i'll lose.you've been trying your best.im not blind.im contented with what we have.im happy being friends.i can tell you things and you'll not be mad.i can open up to you and you'll try to understand.sometimes you might feel im not treating you right.im just afraid.it got broken once and i dont want to break it again.

i'd like to leave our past to rest.the present has something else.

my hands are tied,my heart's not free.