i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

comes in three colours;black,brown and batch.

well she meant to say beige.heh.right.anyway today i thought my parents were bringing me to attend a wedding.i told mayneeakcs i was going to a wedding.i asked nadd along too.but it was snipping hair ceremony.cheh.and i was looking forward to out-of-tuned people karaoke-ing.damn.

but walking around causeway point and the bazaar was fun.though being in the west always makes me feel lost.then i'll actually be lost.and i'll have to call the fire brigade.haha.tepon bombe.sounds better in malay.haha.

sooo yesterday was aqil's 1st.that boy makes me want to squish and sit on him.hahaha.nadd tell him i said happy birthday and and tell him to be good.haha.and i think my mum,if not passed the menopause stage,would have another baby.haha.no really.i wouldnt mind though.i really would like to have a little sibling.but im fine with the big sibling i own.cause he has this stoopid face sometimes that makes me want to punch him.but he's also this caring man and i like it.and he's charming the nuts out of nadd.haha.

i love you smart-intelligent.and i hope you didnt write that cause you're scared laila and i are going to get you a cheesecake for your birthday.hmph.which we will.haha.

mum and pa are watching motorbike racing.and with those words im sure you know im not a fan.i dont like motorbikes but i want a bike license.haha.but but watching them go round and round for so many laps makes me sleep.like hypnotised.you are getting verrryyy sleeepyy.ya.which i am right now listening to the roaring of the engine.but i'd get startled and jump off my seat abit cause mum always screams and dad will shout WHOA!.ya.i love them.

would you go out with someone like me;





yesterday i felt old.
okay this is a wee bit too late for a blog wish but HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LITTLE WOMAN!i hope the wish you made on the thomas cake will come true.well i hope you wished.heh.and stay healthy but you know you always have your nim jom peh pa kao or whatever.haha.and and may God have your name in God's good book.stay out of trouble unless you're with nadd and i.and i love you.so you owe me 5 bucks.

haha.we celebrated laila's with alot of food.mann i have realised i need a lesson in saving my money.maybe two.haha.but we made it anyway cause nadd and i rock.sorta.well mostly her cause ya.heh.and hitting the arcade was bliss la.been so long since the last.and nadd always played dirty.tsk.mean-oh.and we shall never ever ever EVER play that baby game again.never ever.that was a waste of talent.haha.

we played hide and seek with the rain.we went to hide under shelter and when we thought the green light was given for us to go out.the rain found us and started pouring.and we did that a lot of times.i lost count.so finally we decided to walk.haha.after meeting neesha and heading for the void deck i swear nadd was on too much laughing pills.oh did my stomach hurt or what.but it was good.good to see her laugh.and see her take,in her view,nice pictures.haha.well okay la actually.not that bad.except for the part she wanted to create the 'blurry' image and asked me and neesha to shake our heads.WHAT?!haha.you silly la.haha.

talking about primary and secondary days are embarrassing.im sure you you and you would very much agree.but all of us took that step and talked about it.oh boyy.what a conversation.and it might be me but i really cant remember that one part nadd and laila saw,happening.really meh?i'll knock on my brain later and ask.

but whatever we went through together or not,im glad we're here now.

one day when the time comes,i hope i dont see you zone out anymore.i dont know what to do to make you feel better and i cant find the words to say.i do want things to be normal and i want you to see the light.im trying to catch you cause you're falling but when you're spaced it seems that im failing.just dont forget to breathe.im here.

signed sealed delivered;





you need to know that i still care.

we might be hanging out less but i always call/text you asleep or not.at 3 in the morning you might receive a beep.isnt that me you're receiving from?when i get home dont you get talktime with me?and when we do talk dont i ask what has the day been like?how you been?you always have the same old same old.cause you keep it from me.i dont.i tell you what happens/ed.i dont even remmeber the last thing i kept from you.and you dropped a bomb.i know it wasnt for anyone,but i was the someone.

im sorry.

smart-intelligent!

i got what you were saying.okay.you take all the time you need and dont worry your little pretty head about it.talking about little,please remember then remind me of that little one's birthday lest i forget.haha.later kanchiong spider.then how.haha.okay.

now i want to sleep my tiny butt off.oh wait.did you know that maroon five is performing tonight?!damn.like today's tonight.the 25th.

three wishes;





i am touched.

oh nadiah.nobody has ever said they didnt want to take me for granted.usually they say sorry that they have.so this one's for you.

AHEM.

look we've known each other for not very long.5,6 years at most.but it's still counting on.but out of the years i have never seen such a broken up-beaten down you.i cant even remember when was the last time you cried over someone this bad.hmm and me being nice,i shall add laila to this.cause neither she nor i want you to continue being this way.it's bringing you more harm than you know.and it's bringing us pain seeing you resorting to that particular vice.and and normally the only pain you used to give us was the pain after laughing too much.

SO!

you need to pull yourself together.we'll be there to listen anytime.and no we wont get angry or pissed or fed-up.you're close to the lowest point and we'd do anything to get you back up.mann i love you.laila loves you.and everybody around you loves you.so why bring that tinge of unhappiness bring you down when love's all around?

okay.the aftertaste of the crackers i ate is unpleasant.bleah.

you're a stunner;





sometimes i believe crap.

i nearly believed that peegs could touch their heads with their trotters.and i seriously was going to check around my brother's room to see if nadd really planted a camera to spy.well she got the what i was wearing part right and where my dictionary is placed.and she has a thing for the smelly brother.so it could be a possibility.right?yes.haha.

she thinks i have offwhite and grey boxers.HAHA.i have cool coloured ones okay.haha.

i went for an interview today.and it took like a minute so i despised myself for going so late.then i blamed my laziness.haha.i think i can have a full conversation with myself one day.i wonder if that would be any fun.or if anything would come out of it.haha.okay.

im going to get engulfed by the book that im currently reading.it's about a lady who got dumped by this filthy rich guy and she went off to marry some war veteran.but she still kept thinking of the ex boyf and the husband didnt really fit the bill.and she didnt realise it til she went on an affair with this other guy.haha.and she writes this with blatant disregard to everything around her.and i like it.

okay somebody please agree with me that step up 2 is not a good catch.pretty please?i got annoyed by watching it online so i caught it halfway.i thought the first dance in the club sucked.and so did the one with missy elliot's ching a ling.right.

please dont kill me.oh who am i kidding.nadd and laila will give me an earful.and they'll bring along their gang of let's prove rilla wrong.gah.oh oh!i watched horton yesterday.it was a very kid show.very.but but on the other hand,it has a rather deeper meaning know.haha.and i would like to have his ears.very cool.haha.

DID YOU KNOW THAT I TRIED TO FIND VANILLA COKE TODAY AND NO PLACE SOLD ANY?why?

nad.piece yourself back together.im not going to let you go through this.im going to kick his balls and turn them into ovaries.you're worth much more.and he's not too good for you,you're too good for him.OKAY?

rolling;





i need to straighten out my biological clock.sleeping at near breaks of dawn each day is going to do me no good.i actually just woke up.gah.i meant,from a nap la.i didnt hibernate the whole day.i dont live in the poles.

so today was spent with the mayneeacks.i was caught wayy deep in dream land and since in that dream,i was cooking,i thought maybe i'd get to eat.BUT!nadd called and woke me.aiya.and i as usual,braved up and denied that i just woke up.haha.

after some boinking and foinking we met and ate.haha.then it rained.so since i knew that nadd actually had a hidden motive,she suggested to rent a dvd and play it at my place.well it worked out cause my brother came home.HAHA.and she skipped the part of being comfortable so off she went spilling all the beans.you uh.tape your mouth.haha.but i still love you.

i like seeing people on cloud nine.well sorta.heh.im glad tomorrow's going to happen.i told you not to falter.and this fart is for you.heh.

i hope the books we borrowed arent gonna bore us.sometimes i tend to pick wrong books.just like how i pick the wrong kind of people in my life.and to them,thanks.wouldnt have understood the depths of companion without you.haha.idiots.

the speech is pointless and the finger is speechless.





instead of 5 we had 3.

met teenaa first then went to eat.i was feeling too happy to actually go search for a job at town.heh.then met zue and we had no direction in mind so we aimlessly walked.haha.

i realised that without a specific location to go and a certain thing to do,i will decide to shop.and i did.and i wanted to take it back cause when i came home i got my handphone bill.gah!bills give me shockwaves.then my brain will freeze.haha.

im going to get this figured out.

anyway,

tomorrow will be a day for the mayneeacks.i am going to laugh at nothings again.i love.heh.

you know the night sky is dark cause stars illuminate.and stars never shine alone.so if you ever think that way,im just beside you,and i'll gladly share the light.

never far;





i am going to list down things that are out of the blue just cause i feel like it.

i feel like banging my head to the wall and see if i get anything out of it.except for a bloody head and excrucitaing pain.

i am hungry but am not.and i told my friends i was going to eat but i didnt.so i want to tell my brain,mouth and stomach to make a decision after i end this entry.okay?

chris brown's with you is playing.i want to miss somebody but i dont know who.i think i miss you.there.good.this is what happens when i listen to songs that play with the heartstrings.gah.

i realised that the dictionary i hold has the meaning of 'madcaps'.i thought teenaa just made up that word.

i am dampened that the maroon 5 tickets are sold out and i really wanted to go.

too much chicken is not good for health.and who eats three quaters of a cup of fruits and vegetables?did i get that right?well if i didnt it's cause i dont practice eating that way.though i should.maybe that's the reason i fall ill so often.

brain,mouth and stomach has come to a conclusion of having biscuits.i feel like having Rusks biscuits.haha.they actually taste decent.

keep on shining my bright star.dont ever falter.surprise surprise.

cut me open;





today was brilliant.

i love weekends with the family.went to ikea to check out my bed and wardrobe and everything else.haha.there were many people la.want to eat also got no space.haha.so we went to courts instead.didnt quite fancy what i had but i was hungry so i ate.then we went to sit outside and took in the awesome view mann.serious.it was nice to have a breather with them.heh.

oh oh the people that i eaves-dropped on were dumb.haha.it was fun listening to what they had to say.like like this girl wanted to get a shelf but didnt know where to put it.so i answered and said 'then dont buy la you ass'.haha.yea i wished i did.haha.and and a lady was weighing herself on the scale and said 'my weight dropped so much meh?this scale lying to me ah?'alamak.i wanted to smack her.shut up and buy it if you want.so gong.haha.okay.

i caught rouge tonight.and i hate to admit it but it was sooo touching la.i wanted to cry.haha.but but it was uplifting yet heartbreaking.i like.haha.they were talking about love and how they met and their first kiss and the turbulence they have to go through.and i want to be in love too.ANYBODY UP FOR IT?maybe you.yea you.can la.for awhile only.haha.

anyway,

i feel itchy.my hair has grown then mum dyed it for me.the front part of my handphone casing cracked and fell off so now it's half naked.koosit and i have the same model,i sorta just realised.i dont like laila cause she blogs in hindi and neither i nor nadd can understand.we suck at even trying to pronounce it.i hate smiling to myself cause i feel im becoming crazy.but i like that im being random.


you know,life isnt about the number of breaths one takes but the moments that took one's breaths away.

top of the world;





we had a nice long conversation last night.and the smart-intelligent one finally realised the crap we had to sit through during meet the spartans.now trust us when we say a movie is lame.haha.BUT I STILL WANT TO WATCH HORTON HEARS A WHO! and not rule no. 1.you can watch that on thursday.no harm watching two kan?heh.okay sorry.dont cry.

woke up early today.to eat.haha.then watched the csi marathon and didnt quite catch what the last parts were cause they were mumbling and i havent sharpened my ears yet.they should talk louder and not whisper.especially grissom.mumblemumblemumble.

abang went downstairs to,i thought,buy a drink.but he came up with this huge ass box.and he said it was for his friend's birthday.so i asked what is in the box.and he said a disco ball.okay from all the things in the world,WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU ASK A DISCO BALL FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?!i mean,it's not the small ones that you can hang in your car or something.it's the actual gigantic thing.kookoo uh.well unless he's doing a make over for his room and he needs it.but but i dont care it's not practical.and im right.haha.

okay mum just screamed for me to bathe.why do we need to bathe?if smelly cheese is expensive and people like it,why dont people pay to see smelly people?i would be rich.haha.

hate that time and trouble are best friends.





has it been raining or what.

met the mayneeacks yesterday.went to parkway and nadd as usual,wanted to expand her wardrobe collection with dorothy perkins.she told laila and i to walk around first cause if she could,she'll be in that shop until it closes.heh.

a couple of tops and a pair of jeans later,we were in the car.i have this thing with beeg cars.or maybe it's with myself.haha.but but beeg cars make me have motion seekness real fast.then i wanna puke.haha.but i held it in.no worries.haha.

now my friends know so they'll start asking me if im okay when i enter a beeg car.haha.im being adored.

mum called me to tell me a random something.she told me that dad doesnt have underwear to wear.

OKAY MUM!THANKS FOR THE INFO!haha.

but it pissed me off though.cause she called me shouting and i dont like it.or im just having post-menstrual shit.haha.

laila's gonna be shipped back tomorrow.i wonder if she and afie had a great time.hmm..oh well.im having a nice time here.haha.

i want to catch so many movies this time round.like like semi-pro,horton hears a who,brick lane,no country for old men and just for the sake of it,step up 2.although i heard it wasnt good.and it didnt top the ratings chart.i thought the first one bland anyway.gah.

rain makes me not want to bathe.hee.nadd!do you know i love you?i want you to go with whatever you think is right.i promise i wont kill.heh.dont think im fully capable of that.i'll prolly cut myself since the knife loves my skin.haha.but but ya.love you.

kartina has been sticking her nose in her portfolio.with all the whining and close to giving up,i hope you get in.no.you will.heh.AND I KEEP TELLING YOU SO MANY TIMES TO DRAW A PICTURE OF ME!why dont you want to?that might help.haha.

one piece;





i am depressed.im peeling and have fallen ill yet again.why ah?i havent been eating much junk.except for the chocolate cookies part.tsk.one day when my body responses to my questions i'll ask it what's wrong.now it just feels like im going through some rite of passage that doesnt exist.and i dont even know what im talking about.all i know im filled with mucus that is caught halfway between wanting to get out and not.gah.

maybe im supposed to play in the rain.nah.some idiot will prolly call the police.

i want to go out.but if i do then i'll get cranky and feel like kicking people.haha.not really well sorta.haha.oh i forgot nadd has her paper today.well lucks to you.it's kinda late though.haha.at least i said it.it might help.haha.

haha haha haha.im becoming a nutcase.sometimes i dont know what the heck im laughing at.haha.ya see.like that.

laila's shipping off tomorrow.haha.i meant,she's going on a cruise with her schoolmates.and her birthday is coming.she said she doesnt want anything and i hate it when people say that.cause it'll make me think harder on what to get.like come on,who doesnt want at least something on their birthday.right right?haha.last year i gave her doremon thingamajic i got free from buying at 7-11.HAHA.she knew about it cause im honest.and well i got her something out of a nothing.haha.im sure she loved it.heh.

that's the reason why i tell people what i want on my birthday.so dont need to think hard.im being helpful.haha.

now im going to see how far a piece of tissue stuffed up my nose will go while i sneeze.no while i sneeze or after i sneeze?ahh you take a pick.haha.

depression mode in gear;





the person who rang my doorbell at 10 was the cause of me waking up.argh!slept so late and im up NOW?!i wonder who was the doorbell-ringer though.but on the other hand i dont want to know.cause that person woke me up.i dont like the doorbell-ringer.

i think me eating nearly the entire pack of chocolate cookies made my tonsils inflammed.now it hurts.and it usually ties up with the flu the cough and the fever.i dont want to get sick again.argh.i need to grow an orange tree.so i'll have an unlimited supply of oranges and vitamin C.or so until the tree dies.then i'll have to get the 5 for $2 ones.haha.

i think im falling asleep.haha.but i cant with the mean little tonsils hurting me.mum didnt let me take them out.so i'll have to not eat/drink too much chocolate candy fried stuff and coke.no not coke.im going to drink it today.haha.the one with the smooth taste of vanilla.piece of the rainbow mann.haha.

oh oh.while changing my blogskin i closed the window without saving the template,twice.haha.what a turd head.i just called myself a turd head.haha.

i wonder if the mayneeacks are awake.oh oh laila should be awake since she's meeting her cousin at 12.and nadd is prolly drooling.no wait.she just msged me.haha.anyway she always thinks im asleep.i know im not a morning person but im nice.so i wake up early for people like you.then i wouldnt get cranky when you msg me before the break of dawn kinda thing.haha.

i am going to watch CHART ATTACK! on mtv now.whine up is no. 1 on some mtv song chart.i mean who are we kidding mann.whine up?!nobody wants to hear it anymore.aiyo.okay heh.

the rain turned into tears.





i think my mum is tipsy.

HAHA.first she thought i was cleaning my room when i actually am on the net.then she was watcing dirty jobs on tv.the presenter was saying 'that's a lot of poo!' since he's looking at a raw sewerage operator guy.and mummy dearest repeated it and said 'that's alot of boobs!'.

WHAT THE HECK?!THAT'S ALOT OF BOOBS?!*faints faints faints*

im going to say that this myth is confirmed.haha.she's tipsy alright.or still drunk on something.haha.

going out with the parents today.at last dad took a day off.geez.

warmth;





my fingers are peeling.gah.i need more vitamins.i had a bottle of multivitamins once.they looked green like a cow regurgitated it.and tasted like grass.maybe my theory is right.haha.but they were good.didnt fall ill.haha.

what the heck.my computer just switched to the next page while im here tying halfway.the story very bad meh?cheat.

anyway,went to imm today.ate at spagg too.i actually liked it.haha.the portions were not bad.except for the veggs.but who cares.haha.we stayed there for quite awhile cause i was blabbering about both part 3 and 4 of a movie.haha.im glad you listened though.haha.others would just shut me up.hee.

oh yesterday met the mayneeacks.i dont why we were laughing non stop.we laughed at a lot of nothings.and and a lady came up to us while we were at gelare and asked if we took silly pills.HAHA.silly pills?!and there we went laughing again.we laughed while sitting at the esplanade.we laughed while eating.we laughed at every single possible moment.haha.

and and i read somewhere that 5 minutes of pure belly laughing is equivalent to 15 mins of cardio.wait what the hell is belly laughing?we need to have a belly to laugh?okay im confused.HAHA.

i want an osim chair.and a psp.and an ipod.and world peace.there some ideas for the upcoming june.

oh oh laila!your inteligence is not wasted.

mera pyaar mara hua patar per likha hai.





i have finally realized by watching spongebob squarepants,it quickens the pace of destroying my brain cells.i watched the last 10 mins of it just now since i woke up at that time,and it was killing me.like what the heck?!dont laugh too much cause it'll damage your laughing box?and a sponge is taking this from a squid.oh boy.i am a fan of his face though.that's why i have him as a boxer short and a sleeping partner.and that didnt sound right.haha.

went to follow abang get his jeans and clothes at bugis.and to think he asked for a 28 when his actual size was a 32.tsk tsk.it was interesting to watch him try every other size until he reached his own though.heh.the trips back and forth was the usual 'holding-on-for-dear-life' moments.but it's all good.heh.

and laila.i dont owe you.you lied.hee.

today was a wonderful day actually.im glad it turned out this way.dad was home early,mum came back just in time and me and abang were being kids.well im the cute one.haha.ya ya okay.hmm dad quit his job but they want to transfer him instead to changi south's area.so at least it's nearer and dad doesnt need to look for another job.so everything's good.and God if you're hearing,im thankful!

ahh this one part is to the smart-intelligent one.im sorry i blew up today.i didnt mean to use that much 'f's' in a conversation.but i dont want to see you put in another position like that.i promise you i'll hear you out.but there are times i wont keep it in mind cause i think ive told you more than enough times what i feel.i dont mind if you go against me.the choices you make arent mine to decide.just cant bear to take another tear.

without a star,nobody shines.and you're mine.

my hair smells of abang's helmet.i have helmet head and hair.oh mann.

lung expansion in process.





caught the leap years with the mayneeacks.it was a draggy show mann.no offence,it wasnt as bad as i thought.but the reviews were right.wong li lin and 'the shutter guy' had no on screen chemistry whatsoever.gah.AND TO THINK ALLEN WU HAD A SCENE IN THE SHOW.why cant they just use him.then maybe the couple would have another baby.

the movie was depicted as a rather romantic-sappy kinda love story.but knowing us,we laughed at every single possible thing.there was this character who's name was KS.so we went to figure out what it stood for and you dont wanna know what we made KS represent.im sure i irritated the guy beside me with all my laughing.and when wong li lin and 'the shutter guy' kissed,i swear his moustache was in her mouth.like eww.then she waited for him in the rain.exactly when the rain stopped did he arrive.so it made me think he was around the area looking at her and laughing and saying 'serve you right for lying to me.now im gonna wait here and see you freeze til it stops raining'.unfortunately it stopped raining and she didnt freeze.he had to do something.so he proposed.oh oh and he should be fined a gazillion dollars for littering so many of his unsent love letters from the OCBC building.

now,im sure at least someone is gonna try to do an encore by throwing all his unsent love letters down the Singapore Flyer.that's gonna be a good watch.

okay.im attracting insects.yesterday this grasshopper-like insect flew in my room.and i was trying to catch it but i was afraid it'll get in my ears or nose.so i squashed it.and now there's a beetle in abang's room that just flew in.and im afraid of whatever i stated above.i know it's somewhere behind me cause i can hear it.but if it flies out im gonna run.HAHA.no really.i told dad and he said not his problem cause he's not the one in abang's room.hmph.he also scared rigghhtt.hee.

anyway,met teenaa and fizaS today at central.boring place i tell you.serious.then went to scape to see rachelyn and see donno-whatever-thingamajic they have going on there.moved along to esplanade to return books and met faisal.then talk talk.haha.

lalala.how can Singapore lose a JI militant mann.bring shame to country la.so much talk about security but terlepas then how.HOW LIDDAT?!and tight checks have been done in Singapore,Malaysia and Indonesia.and still no sign?HE HIDING UNDER A ROCK UH?!aiyayai.find him and bring him to justice quick mann.

gah.

back to the start.