i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

these five toes wouldve been squashed.

THAT BUGGER ON THE BIKE UH.idiot.i was crossing the road okay.and the traffic light showed a green man and no it hasnt started to flash yet.so i was minding my own business and listening to songs.and there were alot of things that caught my eye so i didnt care what vehicle was waiting to turn cause i want to cross.

AND AND THAT BRAINLESS DUDE came zipping past infront of me.beeetch.what if my toes got run over huh huh huh?grrr grrr grrr.i wish i could kick his bike and make him fall.okay fine.just kick his bike and make him nearly lose control.nearly.

i am so pissed.

hahaha.okay so anyway.i think a way to make myself heal faster is to stop eating junk.haha.but but junk makes everything worthwhile.haha.now im hungry.this has got to stop.heh.

superhero movie is silly.no really.it'll make you want to get in the picture and tell the lead not to be so darn stupid.haha.but it beat meet the spartans hands and feet down.that was whack.like WHHAATT?that was the end of the show?seriously?haha.yea.

i have dug a hole for a burial.im not sure when it's going to happen but it's inevitable.going in and out of comas is seriously heart wrenching.i'll have to say goodbye sooner or later.

MY PHONE IS GOING TO DIE.

kayy.im hungry.going to see what i can eat.

i said goodbye and i choked;





ive never in my life seen it before.

i was not really happily but was working.and there was a family of 5.with 3 boys that havent reached 10 at least.but but one of them shoved his finger up his nose after he dutifully sneezed.and and and HE PUT THAT FINGER IN HIS MOUTH!!!oh my God.please help him to the right path.ewww la please la.gah.

ee ee ee ee.he couldve asked me where the toilet was.gee.

okay anyway.my tastebuds went for a holiday.so now i cant taste.put mud in my mouth and i'd still think it tasted of nothing.i want them to come home fast and quick so i can at least know what im eating.heh.how about i send mucus for a trip and never return?that'll help ease this aching head and red-ding nose.

there's an ant travelling across my screen while im typing and it's rather distracting.HELLO LITTLE ANT?!CAN YOU SEE THAT IM TYPING ABOUT YOU?WHERE DO YOU INTEND TO GO MAY I ASK?i think it's confused.how come ants can travel upside down like a spider?are they spider ants?or is it cause they're insects.but but hmm.okay nehmind.haha.

i hope nadd feels better.at last you poured out whatever's inside.and im sure you might've left abit out or maybe not.but either way i see the picture.push aside that frown.and dont be negative about things.it might get worse,you never know.so right now.you need to breathe eat and relax.and dont skip school.heh.

smile cause you deserve to.

and little woman.you think you chimny eh?havent recovered and sickx2 still want to smoke ah?i'll tell your mum uh.no no.me and nadd will write an article on you smoking and mail it to berite harian.or i can tell your mum where to eat the next time she goes to arab street.

muahahaha.

now is the time for meds.so not looking forward to that dark liquid trickiling down the throat.gah.but i like the nice lozenges that come after.yay.

eventhough;





53rd.

happy birthday pa.and more to come.i hope God has your name in God's good book but for the past 18 years ive been alive,you've done nothing but good to the family.well yea you've done some naughty things you you father of mine you.heh.but ive learnt to overlook that.i also hope that God will panjangkan your umur and murahkan your rezeki okay?

i love you.

and i suck at carrying a cake home.no really.i do.the cake that i bought was durable i tell you.durable.it had no bumps eventhough i nearly dropped it on my way home.haha.and i thought that the decor might most prolly drop off but no.it stayed.good good.unlike the dumb mango cake i had to carry while i was on my way to cpf building.oh did the top stick to the side of the box or what.haha.but sshh.dont tell.it wasnt my fault!hahaha.

i failed my ftt.hahaha.oh yes that green light question popped out.and yes i answered the right one.but i guess i answered other wrong ones.tsk.i am so pissed at myself.now ive to wait my tiny butt for june the 11th.and i better pass or i will pluck all my hair out.okay not really.but but i'll be very sore.haha.

so today i met little woman.oh wait.i'll rephrase that.little sick whiny woman.like gee balls.she was at the most whiniest point.but i was nice sorta cause if i wasnt i would really abandon her.or kick her to the road and let a car ram her or something.hahaha.but but no.i stuck with her and shut down my system when she started to whine.wahlao.bising.haha.

well on the other hand,she looked real ill.like when we just went out to walk she'll feel her feet burning.and she feels cold everywhere else.so i told her she's having a fever and she didnt believe me.so the doctor saved my wasted breaths and told her she's having 39 degrees for the body temperature.ahh there.you eat your little pills and sip your meds and suck your lozenges.

AND QUIT PUFFING TOO MUCH.

and so smart-intelligent is going to blow.ive used all my brain mass to help her out.and im still going to help even if means coming down to chai chee and cooing or ite tampines for that matter.i hope she gets past this phase fast.one thing in life being held hostage is already stressful.this time around 3?!mann huge test from the Almighty.but the Almighty will help you through as well yes?have faith have patience.we'll go through this together okay?im going to take your hand and lead you out.

that is a promise.

kartina suhaimi!congratulations on your acceptance into Lasalle.hope this one goes well yes?you'll be fine in fine arts.haha.okay wait you did take fine arts kan?heh.so now you can draw me in your still life assignments.you'll get your diploma in double quick time.haha.

so i dont know what i thwacked but the aftermath smelt like bananas.hmm come to think of it.been awhile since i had one.haha.oh please clean those minds.gee.

square root of three;





that corner is calling my name
and i know what is it's main;
it's calling back to show
the pain that ive gained.

things ive never spilled
words ive never spoken;
my alter ego just got killed
and this heart is swollen.

i despise this flood that's building
cause it crashes all in its way;
i wished it was that sky im seeing
on the brighter side of day.

im surrounded by mess
and my thoughts are mound;
i for one,wouldnt have guessed
that i wouldve been found.

take it all in,i say
cause no soul wants to hear;
but right now,today
i wished i had an extra ear.

oh dear God forgive me
i know much i have sinned;
but when you hear this
please help me slap back my grin.

pull me;





lesson learnt:pee before entering.

i had my etrial at 9.15pm today.yes yes 'laa,why you book so late?','laa,kau ni pandai uh.asal amik lambat sangat?'.ive heard the norm.dont need anymore.thanks.haha.so anyway.i so needed to pee.but i held it.which was a rather bad idea.

1. i was surrounded with airconds all the way there

2. i reached too early.i couldnt sit nor stand still cause that'll make me want to pee there and then.

3. i didnt want to use the public toilets cause im scared of other people's germs sticking to my butt.hahaha.

4. when i finally decided i had to use the toilet,the level i was in which was the last level,only had gents.

OH BOO.

i lost all concentration no matter how hard i tried to shift my thoughts.until one stoopid dumbshit question appeared and i still think im right.now listen,the question somehow goes like this - when approaching a green light what do you do?

a. maintain your speed
b. slow down
c. increase your speed

im sure im friends/acquaintances with smart people.so you'll prolly have picked a.BUT NOOO.the right answer was b.WHO THE HELL SLOWS DOWN WHEN REACHING A GREEN LIGHT?!HUH HUH HUH??!!what in the world la people.and a cyclist wanting to cross the road with his bike is a hazard?ahh then not my problem uh.wahlao.grr argh pfft.can you sense i am very much annoyed?hahaha.

okay.i hope i pass my ftt though.heh.and i had my v.coke babeh.yay yay!

mellifluous;





reunion.

yesterday was the first day.and it was okay la eh.and meeting any of my friends that works there was the last thing on my mind.wait.i did know one friend.but that number didnt stay long.i met my another friend when i came and another friend at 5pm.

so there we were.all the ping yians.gathered together at work.now who wouldve guessed.

ahh this is the part i dont like about moving off in different places.i dont know what's going on in their lives right about now.and i cant call them and say 'eh what's wrong?'.cause they might be in class or having a lecture.though i know laila actually hasnt started school.haha.but she has her gang to attend to.haha.i just cant use the three-letter word.it reminds me of someone.gah.haha.

so anyway.smart-intelligent.i dont know what's wrong.and what has been going on.school just started and i can see it didnt go off that well.it was a rather painful entry to read.but i hope you'll get it over and done with.and yes take all the time you want.i can give you both my shoulders and ears if you want.but you have to put them back okay.later i become limb-less.heh.

or or if you're feeling like shit,you can remember my cute innocent face okay?then that'll make you smile.okay?hahahaha.and if you dont smile i will come kick your ass.

dont be sorry. i still love you. know that i can never ignore/fight with you. so it ok. starting to miss you though. ily.

that made my heart choke.damn sweetlove,you ripped me open and found that spot.i love you.

holding on to you;






11 hours.

that was what i got for the first day tomorrow.this is going to be exhilarating.im telling you i have a phobia on starting work.it's a phobia and im right.i dont care what you say.haha.im scared of doing anything wrong.and coffee club's uniform is white.oh boyy.double exhilarating.haha.i tried on the shirt and it was so thick my pores couldnt breathe.haha.well okay fine maybe not to that extend.but i felt warm.haha.

let this work please please please.

okay.so i guess i wouldnt be on the computer so much and blogging about how bored i am.haha.but but i still cant get over the fact im going to work at 12 and end at 11.ahhhhh.

*sprawls*

im going to miss the summer fling i had with nadd and lyla.hahaha.it felt like it was.well sorta.haha.im going to miss them.i know we wont be meeting much.gah bah fah.boo.but i hope they'll be well.heh.if not they know they can call me at 9339****.hahaha.

smart-intelligent.
i love you.dont let your emotions get the best of you.
little woman.
i love you.stop puffing too much peeg.

heh.

the shirt has you;





this muscle right here.

everybody cheat/s/ed.and i wont deny i havent.but dont you just hate the feeling on the other end?your chest gets all cramped and you want to explode.but you're keeping your cool and all you can think is to remember to breathe.i hate that feeling.and nobody should ever feel that way.haha.

gosh.that was out of the sky.

no.
im not in love.
im not jealous.
im not.

yes.
i just felt like saying.
i felt it before.
it came out.

gah.

so i met the ladies plus afie today.went to marina to arcade our money off.haha.then went to esplanade to sit.and really to bloody heck enjoy the rather splendid day.but those two idiots uh.wahlao eh.their mouths were literally glued to each other uh.like really.i am not exaggerating.i was tired for them.and to think it was daylight and they're happily frenching away infront of everybody.

im sure many had nice conversations with their friends after taking the pictures of those two idiots.

oh i finally got a job.and please let this job be fine.please God please.

smart-intelligent.i hope you have fun at school.and im sorry about today.

brainwaves and massive shyness;





look at the time.

gah.i woke up at 7 today.then i realised it was too much of an unearthly hour so i went back to sleep.and woke up at 10.yay to me.haha.it rained just now.like heavy downpour kinda.so it was a rather nice sleep.and i didnt disturb the nose.heh.

i know i didnt do much yesterday but i was tired from something.maybe it's the late nights and early waking up hours.heh.but sorry i put down the phone early.i couldve dozed off and that wouldnt be nice.and im nice.haha.

so im meeting the ladies at i have no idea what time.yea come to think of it.not my fault if im going to be late.haha.we're gonna watch definately maybe and prolly make fun of every scene.haha.but i hope the show's good though.looks good.heh.oh oh i want popcorn.haha.

this sudden cough is making me think.i didnt eat alot of junk.well okay not really.heh.i did have v.coke and toblerone and 2 ritter sports and a hershey's bar and a pack of chips.hahaha.BUT i didnt eat them all in one day.i spread them out like im supposed to.so this cough is not going to stay right right right?haha.oh please let it go away.i dont want to be siiick.heh.

oh yesterday i went to pick teenaa up.she basically has nothing to do at work.like seriously nil zero nada.when i called her she was finding 5-letter words that could be spelt the same front and back wards.hmmm busy like a bee that woman.haha.

right so meeting laila at 2.wake up call at 12.then meeting nadd later.okay.get that in my head now.

open wound;





karung guni man.

i remember them from when i was a tot.id get all revved up hearing him honk his horn cause i know somebody in the house mustve someting to sell.then i'll take the money since im cute and have this 'pretty please may i?' face.haha.but i did also get the normal threat of being sold if i was being naughty.heh.

BUT.

now that im growing and have access to sleeping late,i dislike the karung guni man.he wakes me up every single morning.like really now,do you have to seriously honk where my bedroom window is at?huh huh huh?im sleeping know?gah.and my tiny nose has this thing it does.like i cant disturb it if i want to go back to sleep.cause if i do,which is usually the case,i'll sneeze and no matter how i try,i wont sleep.it's sorta telling me i disrupted its sleep so now it's awake and wants to stay like that.

oh God.i am becoming paranoid.i hope i dont lose friends for this.haha.

right.so im awake and smelly cause i havent bathed.and yes i know it's past 5.and i dont care.but i need to bathe cause i can smell myself and oh i can smell my neighbour's cooking.haha.talking about cooking i havent eaten.well i had bread.haha.but im not hungry.maybe the rain filled my tummy with raindrops and rainbows.i hope it doesnt feed me thunders and lightning.

oh shucks.im bored.

i should think by now nadd has seen all of jeff dunham's vids on youtube.and the time she finally gets bored,she'll quit saying SILENCE!i kill you.haha.then she'll prolly go back to britney spears in meet the spartans.and laila's driving in the rain.dont forget to turn on the windsheild wiper and dont close your eyes.haha.

minor meltdown major heartache;





my brother is a complete klutz in the kitchen.

he wanted to heat up this dish mum put in the fridge.so i told him he just needed to dump it in a pot and let it heat up.but he was convinced water was to be added.for i dont really know what reason.and then he flame went out.and i guess so did his brain cause he asked me where did the fire go.

uh huh.

i remembered a time he was attempting to fry an egg.and he was fully equipped with a helmet.in case the oil splatters.oh boyy.another criteria for the 'wife checklist' is she needs to know how for fry more than an egg.heh.

so vivo-ed today.i think if vivo had a mouth,it'd spit me out.haha.oh oh.went to harbourfront's starbucks to drink a rather unpleasant cuppa.heh.no offence.i still do not like it.haha.but but i loike the chocolate that came after.haha.and LAILA!you dont steal mine and nadd's thingamajigga okay?!we kill you.haha.

mann.these times will be missed la.they're starting school soon.and ive got a couple of months to burn.that is if dad says everything's okay.heh.God willing he says it will.and laila cant pick a nearer school to go to.haha.and mine wont be that near either.and gah bah fah.

jeff dunham is nadd's new boyf.

but if the while I think on thee,
dear friend,
all losses are restored and sorrows end.





i need to drag my bum and pack.

gah.moving off earlier than i expected.and i hate hate hate packing.all the dustbunnies will appear and get in my nose.aiya.i need to buy dustbunny repellent.or i can leave my closet and bed and table in the room.mum wants me to throw them away anyway.ask the new owners to take it out themselves la eh.heh.but they're nice people.cant do this to nice people.

today was nadd's brother's wedding.and as usual i was late.haha.LAILA UH!she got another wedding to go what.so i watched cartoons lor.then kena scold seyy.wahlao.heh.okay okay.my fault my fault.dont get angry.tsk.

mum bought 3 mangoes for 5 buckaroos.now who thinks that's nonsensical??I DO!like whatt?yea they were sweet uh but $5 for sweetness?i'd rather eat myself.haha.no matter how wrong that sounded like.and talking about sweet,i finally got my vanilla coke baby!yey yey.they only sold it in the 1.5 litre one but mum told me i could have it.so no time wasted la ya.

singapore should hold the are you smarter than a fifth grader show.and i want to be in it.the US one asks bloody easy questions.like how many letters are there in the word yak?hmm well i think it's 9.what the heck.yak yak yak.

nadd.you lied about the inflated pig at the elevator.you mean.i called laila to say that i didnt want to talk to her cause she called me a pig.haha.

kartina!i hope you're better.dont worry about it yes?they come and go but the best stays for the worst.you're too sweet to be crying over this.i know it's hard since both of you went through alot.and the sudden change is weird but if you didnt do nething then just forget about it.okay?you need to smile more.

:))

i need to go for driving lessons.and not those in the arcade.gah.

here's a piece of my heart;





mum told me to be careful when eating octopuses.their testicles might get stuck down your throat.HAHA.

oh mum.tentacles mum tentacles.haha.

well today rained.been so long since i saw it rain this much.yay!got fresh air to breathe.haha.and today was spent with the lovely ladies.i felt like being nice.haha.went to kallang alone first then met laila to head to plaza singapura.cause nadd lost her oh-so-precious and for her whining to stop,we got her a new one.

went back to bedok and we,as usual,cant decide where to eat.haha.instead of pasir ris we went to t3.had popeye's and nadd made a new friend.haha.they always make new friends.laila usually gets hooked to the younger ones ranging from 10 to 14.and nadd hmm well she usually gets the older ones ranging from 65-80.but this was exceptional.heh.

headed for home.and i got sleepy from all the sleepless nights.so i crashed on the living room floor.which i found out,wasnt quite a back-breaking place to sleep.or maybe cause i couldnt care less and the wind was already lulling me.but i woke up to mum's voice telling me to sleep in my room.which i didnt cause the telly was showing something good.

big brother just woke up.haha.his sleepy face makes me want to give him a slap.haha.well well he'll be near when im attending nadd's brother's wedding.okay nadd!?he'll be veryyy near.like block 10 near.just down the street.haha.i told him he could follow.heh.but i doubt he will.he'll prolly be with his mat motor friends being smelly.haha.

considering the fact that im still rather drowsy from lala land,my brain is telling me it has nothing much to say about today.

oh oh.nadd and i finally got our junk.yay!haha.thanks eh laila eh.and and nadd i'll find you your kinder surprise one day la ya.so sad see you disappointed until want to cry liddat.haha.

take a bullet for you;