i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

boy oh boy.

ive always wanted to see you physically with my own eyes.no it's not cause you're being missed.it's cause i want to see you for myself if you're in still or out.and low and behold there you were last night.

after that bump/talk,i regretted wanting to see you.cause i dont want to get stuck in that web again.i cant believe you still bear so much of a grudge towards us.we're done.although a part of me is still lingering somewhere,but i respect her and what she has right now.im in no way wanting to break them up cause they are very much happy together.you on the other hand,cant seem to find that happiness.

why,i ask?

if you want to hold on to that hatred,oh by all means.but channel it to me.all your crashed hopes,anger,pain,misery.i caused it.for that i am truly sorry.i broke the bond.i made you people turn against each other.it's my fault.really i am very sorry.i didnt mean to cause this much of a mess.

one more time,im sorry.

but you dont have the right to be calling and sms-ing me in the wee hours.eversince last night ive gotten 5 missed calls and 2 sms-es in a span of 3 hours.you have got to be kidding.and i got woken up by every call and sms.but mind you,i not only have school but i have work today.and all thanks to you,im up at this time when i couldve been recharging.

oh my God.please let today be a good day like all other good days.

exhales;





i hate melting in the pot.

sometimes my brain works for the wrong reasons.and when those times come i wish i could sleep the thoughts away.but having my brain working at its peak i never get to do that.i'll let it take over me and show me all the creases my life has offered or might offer.and i do not like it one bit.cause as much as i would not like to do it,the blame lands on me.and im responsible for all that has happened.even if i wasnt the direct source,it's still my fault.and often i have no idea why.

i should live and let live.eat drink and be merry.but im sick and tired of being sick and tired.

dont cut off my air supply;





my house or shall i say my room should be soundproof.well at least soundproof to squeaky baby/toddler shoes.oh dont get me wrong i adore kids.i just do not like them shoes.like geez.and im in the middle of two houses that have tots.so everyday without fail no matter what time i slept the night before i will get woken up by cries or squeaks.that's everytime the clock reaches 11+ in the morning.gah.i want to sleep til my body tells me to wake up.not when tots make me wake up.im not ready to be a parent.haha.

oh and before this slips out of my mind,HAPPY 19TH NADIAH AL-ANSARI!!we havent got to the second celebration part cause you and laila are still in school and i havent,ahem,bathed.so i hope we got you everything you wanted.yes?okay.haha.

i cant believe ellen degeneres is getting married.like whoa.that was a shock.marriages are the in thing nowadys mann.like so many of my friends are getting married.not that ellen is my friend but you know,we know her kinda sorta almost.haha.but still i think marriages need to be thought out quite abit.and right now i think i should stick to thinking about what my next meal would be.that needs a thought or two as well.haha.

today shall be a happy day.i shall have fun.cause i have no idea what tomorrow has in store for me.but i'll live through everyday.

woohoo!

falling never fail to hurt;

nadiah hates me.

she continuously puts up fugly pictures of me for all to see.then she forgets how to spell my name.why........?i want to roll to that corner and cry.and this is not funny.so if you're there on the other end talking to someone then suddenly burst out laughing,stop.cause it not funny.

HAHA.

so anyway i want to talk about work.haha.yes it usually doesnt happen but just listen or read for that matter.see see i was calling this guy up to tell him his contract is going to expire and wondering if he wanted to take up another 2 years.then he suddenly sounded so sad like vsdjhbdfhgbf sad you know.so he said actually he took up the plan with his girlfriend and they lived together.BUT THEY BROKE UP RECENTLY AND AND I FELT SO BAD.like sheeeet.and he asked me to call her instead but i only had his number so i asked if he STILL had hers.oh God.i thought he was going to scream in my ear.haha.but it was okay.his voice still lingers in my mind sometimes.which is rather eerie.haha.

then then i called another one to tell the same thing la.and he said he cant give me a definite answer cause his contract for work is going to expire soon and he's going to be jobless.then i didnt know what to feel towards him.so i went 'oh okay.sorry about that.'HAHA.i am so bad at this.haha.

laalaalaa.

OH OH.miss Venezuela is HOTTT.like congrats for winning miss universe woman.and kudos to miss USA.at least you didnt cry and sit there like a dumbdumb.i think those who enter the pageant should have suction cups attached to their heels.okay maybe not.suction cups are hard to lift when stuck to the ground.and they make a loud sound when lifted.hmmm that'll be rather annoying.haha.

school's going to start next monday.laila's tp is on the thursday of that week.so i hope you do well which im sure you will.dont worry yea it's going to be a breeze.you've done it over and over even when you had hot-person-alert distractions also you didnt crash so that's a pretty good sign.haha.so no worries little woman.

dont take the first plunge if you're not ready;





MORNING SUNSHINE THE CLOUD SAYS HELLO!

sentosa skyride tip 101.

keep your slippers very close to your feet.cause slippers being slippers,might just slip.and that was what happened to me me me.haha.well at least we had a free trip back down so i can retrive my precious slipper.haha.i think my slippers are rather fond of running away.why i got treat you very bad meh?hmph.haha.

we had a very advanced celebration for nadiah al-ansari's 19th.haha.gosh it's been a while since i woke up at 7 to bathe then meet them.i cant remember the last time we met so early.haha.and so we had breakfast at macs harbourfront.thanks eh nadd eh.heh.then took the monorail/tram,whichever you feel comfortable.

fast forward.underwaterworld.

eyy what the fishes eat over there ah?why they like so hugeassenormous?like do some of the people who feed the fishes get eaten too?heh.but yea.the conveyor belt made me tip for a moment.i no likey things make me go round and round real selooww.heh.and and i touched stingray!haha.i was scared la actually cause they look hungry and they want to get out of the area they were in.if they eat me how?then i wont be able to eat them anymore cause they prolly taste pretty slimy when not in a pot.haha.okay that was mean.but it true.heh.sorry stingray fish population.heh.

i wasnt fond of the dolphin lagoon though.haha.the dolphins look ill with grey/pink on them.why are they grey in the first place?then how come we have to wait for it to turn pink?and if so why wouldnt they wait for them to turn pink before having a show?huh huh huh?haha.okay ya.

the southern most point of continental asia.haha.i like saying it cause it makes me feel smart.hahaha.but that place has the most kick ass wind ever.it'll stroke you by the hair and lull you to sleep.really!if you can sleep there la.or you can write your life story.but if it hasnt been interesting/emotionally heart wrenching dont bother.haha.okay sorry.

eh eh.we wore super shirts!haha.we had 2 superman and 1 supergirl.well umm shirts i mean.haha.we became superheroes for the day and people came up to ask for autographs and pictures.but we said no la cause we not the real ones what right.ya.

HAHA.ya sure.yelayela.

and my tummy had a blasting time cause after that i filled it with starbucks and a doublecheese burger.fila rocks and nadd...thanks eh.haha.

tell me what's bothering;





literally took my breath away at 0630.

dad woke me up by planting a beeg one on my cheek while i was asleep.but he articulated the MMMUAAKSS sound so loud i didnt have the chance to breathe.haha.and the stubble was too ticklish for me.haha.oh wells.i appreciate it though.

gah.spent the day with little woman.we went shopping of course.haha.oh and i slept for awhile in regards to the abovementioned.haha.laila is helpless when she enters the superman store in bugis.gah bah fah.not only will she spend her close to,every dollar,she also intends to buy over the whole shop so she can have access to all the superman/girl items that she wants.oh doesnt this story sound oddly familiar.haha.my 2 happy pills are happily dreaming to get a store of their own.

so lucks to that.haha.

work has been rather fine.the pay is coming a little later than expected but i'll settle for that.haha.as long as my bank has more digits than it has now.haha.i seriously want a new phone.mine is at its brink of really dying on me.haha.i hope it wont.will you mr sony ericsson?heh.i'll hold you til november okay?then i'll sell you away.haha.

NAD.

you will NOT have 2 celebrations for your birthday cause im jealous.HMPH.

haha.

thicker than everything;