i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

boy oh boy.

ive always wanted to see you physically with my own eyes.no it's not cause you're being missed.it's cause i want to see you for myself if you're in still or out.and low and behold there you were last night.

after that bump/talk,i regretted wanting to see you.cause i dont want to get stuck in that web again.i cant believe you still bear so much of a grudge towards us.we're done.although a part of me is still lingering somewhere,but i respect her and what she has right now.im in no way wanting to break them up cause they are very much happy together.you on the other hand,cant seem to find that happiness.

why,i ask?

if you want to hold on to that hatred,oh by all means.but channel it to me.all your crashed hopes,anger,pain,misery.i caused it.for that i am truly sorry.i broke the bond.i made you people turn against each other.it's my fault.really i am very sorry.i didnt mean to cause this much of a mess.

one more time,im sorry.

but you dont have the right to be calling and sms-ing me in the wee hours.eversince last night ive gotten 5 missed calls and 2 sms-es in a span of 3 hours.you have got to be kidding.and i got woken up by every call and sms.but mind you,i not only have school but i have work today.and all thanks to you,im up at this time when i couldve been recharging.

oh my God.please let today be a good day like all other good days.

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