i am a 2 year old addict.
i take pictures with my eyes.
my beating muscle is co-owned.
and if found,do call.

beautiful.














updated a day late.

happy birthday baby.sorry for the birthday lunch instead of breakfast.muahaha.and i hope i got you what you wanted.heh.so here goes the usual.i hope God has your name in His good books and panjangkan your umur and murahkan your rezeki.haha.and i know i texted the exact same thing to you.haha.but nevertheless,i still hope it happens.heh.and i hope your party later will be awesome and i hope you'll have fun.if i cant be there,im sorry.i shall never incorporate half a packet of fox,ice-cream,indian sweets,chocolate and that turkish thing mum bought that was awfully good but sweet into my 3 meals a day.mann.that was all i ate that day minus lemon biscuits and a hotdog.haha.someone should limit my sugar intake.

the past week was like work.haha.but dont get me wrong.it was doing something that i loved.i could go out with a destination in mind and an errand to accomplish.i had to sit in a car and look at what is going on outside and sometimes i could stick my head out and feel the wind gushing to my face.i had things to do,people to talk to and nothing to worry about.well except for what im going to wear and such.but other than that,i did all those mentioned with lyla.and i love time spent with that little woman.the whole week was all about managing her party.and im sure it'll be paid-off.

so anyway,im going to crash for awhile and try to self-medicate my throat.bleahh.baby,have a great party.have a wonderful time turning 20.eat proper,eat more,dance like there's no tomorrow and sleep well.i love you.




they dont know how long it takes,waiting for a love like this.





it's not like ive got anything to do.dont bother reading.really.it's those 4 in the mornings banter.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
So Sorry,It's Over - Blink 182

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Womanizer - Britney Spears (yea,sureeeeeeeee)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Shake It - Sean Paul

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
My Space - Don Omar ft Wisin y Yandel

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
This Aint A Love Song - Bon Jovi

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Labels or Love - Fergie (jyeahh babyyy!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Homecoming - Kanye West ft Chris Martin

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
What Makes A Man -Westlife

WHAT IS 2+2?
Love Me For A Reason - Boyzone (if only i could answer this in maths class)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Forgive Me - Leona Lewis

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hate Me Now - Nas & Beenie Man

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Beautiful Liar - Beyonce (thanksss.)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Rollin - Limp Bizkit

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
One Wish - Ray J

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Love Like Honey - Pretty Ricky

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Nice Girls - Kevin Little (im sure the makciks and pakciks will shake it :)))

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Used to Love You - John Legend

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Stupid Cupid - Mandy Moore

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
My Everything- 98 Degrees (my mp3 loves you too)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
November Rain - Guns N Roses

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Enter Sandman- Metallica

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Lady Marmalade - All Saints

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Time To Let Go - Marcos Hernandez (oh this is contradicting)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Girl On TV - LFO

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Shotgun Wedding - Panic! at the Disco (uh oh.that's something to Panic! about)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
He Wasnt Man Enough For Me - Toni Braxton

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Girl of My Dreams - The Moffats (oh really baby?you dooo??hahaha)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
This I Swear - Nick Lachey

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I Miss You - Incubus

i realised i have many many sappy love songs.zomg.AND CHIN YING YING I STEAL THIS.hahaha.





double mint.

ive been popping these pellets every other day eversince nadd gave them to me.haha.and i thought it'll be awhile til i get my next bottle but last night,the brother asked me along to go jb.and so here i am,with 2 more bottles in hand,the happy goober.muahahaha.i dont even know if that line made sense.haha.but i get it somehow.haha.

today was well actually still is,a lazy saturday.it poured in the noon and i was passing the time with my electronic lover,the telly.mann i can get glued on that thing for the whole day.haha.i am a pig.i know.but i decided to pass the torch.haha.parents wants to watch the manchester and liverpool match.hmm i have a gut feeling that manchester's going to lose.or it'll be a draw.haha.soccer is one of those things on tv that i can never understand.never.at all.gee.

oh oh i had vanilla coke flavoured sheesha last night.haha.it was surprisingly good.haha.but i wasnt feeling all to well though.and brother's driving did not help one bit.i thought i was going to puke.bleah.and on the topic of driving.grragh.the tp is just there.like just next thursday and im already starting to pee in my pants.please please please God,help me through this.and through the test in school i have on friday.please please please.

okayy.i dont know what im going to do for the next couple of hours til i fall asleep.well not exactly a couple.but you know.somewhere along that.haha.i have no entertainment tonight.cable's taken,i dont know where my brother put the dvds we bought last night so i might ruffle through his bedroom,im sure mediacorp aint showing nothing much and the brother took his psp.boo.

my silly idiot is out partying with the relatives.me miss silly idiot.HARROE SILLY IDIOT?ME MISS YOU.hahaha.hope you're having fun.and dance til you drop babyy.dance se pe chance padele.hahaha.however it's spelt,whatever it means.haha.

standing in the light of your halo;





love story.

6 years.that was how long i kept everything hushed.we've had our own make ups and break ups.and we had our trust,faith and sincerity given to someone else before.in which we were true and there was never a second guess.but in those we have also screwed up and found no point in continuing.and each time i picked up the pieces,you came to mind.not that i was looking for someone to have a rebound on or some fling i can toss,but someone who can help me piece myself together.im not relying entirely on you cause it's best to rely on oneself.but a helping hand is never a bad thing.

i was terrified of breaking your heart.i was totally afraid you'd run me over with a car.well not literally but you know our past and surroundings.it didnt seem like we were going to happen.but you held that key and i couldnt stop myself.i know we hurt a few people in the course of making you and me into us,for that,im sorry.

we happened.my heart's still smiling and i dont wish to get over this glee.you are my strength,my weakness.you take away my fears and you you keep the nightmares at bay.you lift my sprits and you make my wildest dreams come true.you calm me.you coax me.you make me as comfortable as you can and as i want to be.you give and take.you forgive my stupidity,my ignorance.you make everything clearer.you make everything right.you make me feel blessed.you let me feel what it's like on top of the world.you let me be a kid yet you know when to take me seriously.you make smile like a senile idiot.you showed me the definition of love.you showed me the definition of us-just you and me.

anyhow,you'll be within me.

:))


it's my heart and it's going gone away;